Hey – It’s been a while since I needed a pick me up in the asylum, so bear with me if this gets long. Last spring I talked on here a lot about my ex fiancé who up and left without telling me what was going on. We kept in touch for a few weeks, and decided that I should move to AZ to try to work it out. I quit my job, she changed her mind, I moved home to ND. Never talked to her again, she wouldn’t respond to email, phone, letters, etc…. I went through a major depression where I didn’t care about anything, lost a crazy amount of weight and did nothing but lay in bed… So I finally made myself get help, went to counseling, got put on meds and all that jazz. So it’s been 9 months since I’ve seen her. I’ve come a loooong way from where I was and have definitely matured through all this and learned how to deal with life (this was my first major “life changing” event). Plus I put on 40 pounds which is a good thing. I have a great job, I’m social again, I’ve met new girls – life should be good. But I can honestly say I miss her as much as I did 8 months ago and still have the unrealistic belief that she was the one for me. So at Christmas I decide to email her, just friendly stuff and that I miss her a lot. To my surprise she responded two weeks later. She was really friendly, talked about a lot of stuff we both enjoyed, our cat that she took, our dog that I took, etc… it was great to hear from her. But she also said that she’s being treated for depression and made it sound like she doesn’t have many friends, doesn’t like her job and is still living w/her parents. She did absolutely nothing to ease my pain when she left or even help me understand what the problem was. So my problem – despite what she did, it breaks my heart to hear that she’s not doing too well and I can’t do anything about it. I emailed her back, but haven’t heard anything in 2 weeks. I don’t know if something happened to her lately, something happened to her before she left, or what she’s going through. But I'm worried about her. It probably shouldn’t concern me, but to think that she just took off when everything seemed to be going great and is now telling me that she’s depressed (she didn’t say why), leaves me thinking “what the hell”. We had a great thing going and it’s come down to this – me over depression, but still heartbroke and her depressed in AZ. I don’t get it…. Thanks for reading…and yes, I know I need to move on and forget about it. It’s just a matter of finding nonpainful method of amnesia or a really cool girl.