I'm not sure for you guys but for me it's a tiny period of stability and then once again I realize how unhappy I really am, I'm just living without enjoying life. When I have the opportunity to advance or even make friendships I usually sobatage them. I've thought of medicine but what irks me about medicine its that it would be "hiding" the problem and not solving it. It wouldn't solve the structure of my life, how constricted it is. It all goes in a cycle or the same routine. How do you guys deal with the stable periods and then the nervous breakdowns/or just plain sad days??