I just turned 20 years old. I'm not in Iraq, but I'm still deployed from home. I've been here in Arizona working on the border for about 4 months now, with 4 months to go unless I extend. I'm a VOLUNTEER. Everyday I wonder if it's worth the money to be away from everything I love and know, and the people who love me. I broke down the other night. I try to control my emotions, but I realized the reality of where I'm at, away, alone, and trying to fit in. I've never met so many new people in such a short time in my life, but it's not the same. None of these people love me. I'm trying to find love down here, a girl, I've met some, but no 'Mrs. right' How do I cope?