So over the past week or so I have felt somewhat down and generally unmotivated. I think it has had several sources. The first being work. My boss, Ryan, put in his 3 week notice. Well, when this happened, by the natuaral flow of things, Chris should have moved into Ryan's position, and then I would have moved into Chris' position. However, this doesn't seem to be the case. Simply because the person that would wind up taking my position can't compose himself, let alone a crew. So, for the time being, it looks like I'm stuck being the shop supervisor instead of what I really want to do, which is graphic design and computer operation. This may change in the next couple of months by bringing on an employee who can acutally be productive for not only himself, but also make time to make sure the others are keeping busy. Second. About 2 months ago my girlfriend Emily and I broke up. This didn't come as a huge shock to me as this was the second time we had been together and we were having the same problems as the first time. So basically I've just gotten somewhat lonely because I'm used to the company. I can solve it with friends and such, but it's just not the same. And lastly, I've been having a hard time with my dad's death. It's been just over 9 months since he passed. Most of the time it's fine and I can deal with it, but over the past 3-5 days, I have really been missing him. I just think of what I wouldn't do to be able to hang out with him on a Saturday afternoon. So yesterday (Sunday, May 28) I went to his grave. It was kind of a hard thing to bear, but at the same time, it felt like he was there with me (for those of us who are religious). It felt like he gave me a big hug to let me know that he still loves me and that someday I will see him again.