First off, I'm posting this on behalf of a friend. She's a girl, and 15 years old, same age as me. For the rest of the post, I'm going to speak in first person as if I am her. Anything I write in italics is me, nish81, speaking. --- ok, im not sure where to start, so I'll just take it from anywhere. i have a depression problem. i used to be suicidical and used to be addicted to cutting myself, but when i moved to tanzania I found a new life. slowly i managed to work myself back to a 'normal' state, and rebuilt myself, but i was still very shakey - this was grade 9. when grade 10 started, (in august 2006) things started going downhill for me. i was smoking cigarettes and weed, and didnt consider that a problem at the time. my parents couldn't do anything about the cigarettes after my 16th birthday 'cause they're legal there, but i had to do the weed in secret. then there are these two guys, ill call them A and B ,they're basically the root of the problem. A was basically my boyfriend, we both really liked each other and we were seeing each other for a long time. he was a bit of a flirt i guess, but maybe so was i...and with each other we had something really special, not just another fling. i really like(d) him, and im pretty sure he did/does too. the problem is, my parents caught me doing weed, and found out that A was the one who was getting weed for me. so they banned me from seeing him ever again, which is basically how we 'broke up', this was around october, but we still really liked each other. then there's B. B is bisexual and at the moment more interested in guys. he has been my best friend ever since i came to tanzania, and the first few months of our friendship were great. but then he really started getting me down. he started insulting me in front of other people, and later he would say that he was just joking and that i should realise that, and he has such a superior air, it made me feel so small. this was the cause of more than a few fights between us, and i started to loose a bit of my closeness with him. in the middle of all this, i was trying to quit smoking because i realised how bad it was for me, pull my grades up, and i found out that my dad has syphillis, (spelling? the lung disease) and he could...well die I guess, any time. so this wasnt really a good time for me. there's also C, who became a closer friend to me, and i started confiding in him. (note: C is me, nish81, and since im writing this for her, im not sure if my description of myself is accurate..take it with a grain of salt). so this takes us up to december, and then the holidays came around. at the holidays i wasn't at a high point in my life, not the lowest really, but not high either. i had been fighting with B quite a lot, and i had learnt some strange things about him. he basically believes that he is an angel, and he says he has wings that only he can see in the mirror, and he says he can see the future and the end of the world, which will be in my lifetime. i think he's insane...his parents are dead and he lives with his uncle and aunt. he's also kinda unstable and depressed, and i knew that if i were to cut him out, he'd start cutting himself and god knows what, and i didnt want to be responsible for that. anyways, the holidays came around, and i went off to south africa and had an amazing time, that made me feel really better. so i came back to school on a high note. (note: school began this monday, the 8th of january). then disaster happened for me. on wednesday, (10th), after-school, B came up to me and said that he had been sleeping with A. I mean !! he knew that I still really liked A, and all of that, and he went and slept with him behind my back! since december or something, they've been seeing each other! and all this time A was also talking to me kinda flirtaciously, pretending nothing was wrong, long phone calls, making me feel good, all of that, and then he's sleeping with B behind my freakin back! when i heard this i felt like i had been kicked, i felt like i had swallowed a knife, I felt so disgusted and sickened by the fact that this had all gone on behind me, that i had been PLAYED so badly, i just hated it. i told C about this, and he (or me) suggested that i should cut B out of my life, or at least distance myself from him, use this as a kind of closure and try to get on with my life. also, B told me that he started cutting myself because he says 'his wings are going', i mean and i knew that if i distanced myself from him, he'd lose it completely. last night, (friday night), C called me up and admitted that he had known that B and A were sleeping together, because B had told him in the last week of school. actually, i should tell this myself. the only reason i didn't tell her is because B told me this under strict confidence, and i dont like breaking confidences. in hindsight it was the wrong thing to do, and i think she should have been pretty pissed off at me for hiding that from her, but surprisingly she isn't i took that well. and then also on friday night i got pissed at B, and basically told him how much he was hurting me. i also told him that i was going to talk to A about this later, and B got extremely worried about that, he said 'please don't', but i was adamant. tonight i met with A, and i couldnt bring myself to say anything, he was just so nice, and gave me a big hug and a great present, and i melted...how am i meant to do this?? Anyways, there's her situation. I posted this with her permission, so don't worry. I'm sorry that there're no cliffs, I just ask of you to read all of this, and please give some advice. By this point I'm kinda overwhelmed as to what advice to give her. Thanks!