Hey everyone, I just wanted to apologize for how I have behaved on OTAP. I have no place to talk crap about people who make a living with photography. It took incredible amounts of courage to even step out and take the chance to support ones self off of photography - one that I'm not willing to take at the moment. It is obvious that I don't appreciate the art of photography in general, and hold standards that I can't always reach myself. Lately, I have been wondering why I even have a camera. I don't take pictures hardly at all anymore, yet I still come in and comment in threads and on photos, when I myself don't even have anything to show. To those that I really argued a lot with: Al - Sorry for being such a douche. I really appreciate the help and critique you've provided me in my time on OTAP. I'm amazed at the progress you're made in the past year and can only wish that I have your same level of success in any endeavor that I choose. Jared - Man, I don't even know where to begin. I have so much respect for you and your work. Your NOIR project was a feat that I don't even want to think about tackling. I'm neither creative or ambitious enough to have such a cohesive portfolio of great work. Dylan - Sorry for being such a dick. I think at times I am quite envious of you and as such, my responses to you probably aren't the best. Johnny Chimpo (I don't know your real name) - I probably respect your posts the most out of anyone else on OTAP - maybe because of how you word them, or how we discussed a while back about how you pull them out of your ass, but have them come out so eloquent, mad props. Thought I don't always read every work you write, I appreciate the enthusiasm and alternative view to mine that you bring to the table. To everyone else: Keep your spirits high and don't let me or anyone in OTAP tear you apart. You're the only person that can determine your future and only motivation and ambition can guide you there. Somewhere along the way, I lost sight of what mattered most, and that was where I wanted to be with photography. I merely thought I was good enough and that was enough. Never think you are good enough or that you're hot shit or it will catch up to you. I applaud everyone's efforts to better themselves, I only wish I could do the same. That said, I have decided to take a hiatus from photography, from OTAP, and probably from OT. I need to focus on other aspects of my life at the moment, and need to rid myself of distractions. I might check in from time to time to see what kind of progress everyone is making, because that is what I really like to see. Other thanks: Ben - thanks for not being too rough on me. I hope everything works out for you in taking photo full time (and good luck with the new job), I'll be around FB and twitter - I love watching Kami get older. Joey - man, another person who I really admire, not only in photography, but in success in life in general. You've got a really bright future. I don't know how you do so well at tech and still have time for photography, a long distance GF, and a social life. Maybe one of these days we can get lunch or something in Atlanta. Craig - you're probably one of the photographers that exposes yourself the least on OTAP. I look at your portfolio and can only wish I could conceive some of the images you do. Jesse - props to you for serving our country. I'll still be around on IM. If you need anything, hit me up. I'm excited to see what kind of progress you make once you make it back stateside. I can tell you're poised to hit the ground running. Jim - You old man. I appreciate all the kind words and help. I really admire you for chasing after your dreams in your career path and your ambition later in life to come back to an old love. I know I have forgotten some people, but this has already taken entirely so long, so I'm sorry. If anyone needs to contact me, don't hesitate to send me an email at firstname.lastname@example.org, as I won't be checking my PMs very much. Thanks again for everything. I'll be around, but I really need to focus on other aspects of my life right now. Hopefully I'll be back when I get my life and my future straightened out.