I have been depressed for a long time now (since I was in the 3rd grade, I'm 23 now) but I've always written it off as Seasonal Affective Disorder. It would usually happen during the winter, so I would just make up for it by getting as much sun as I could during the summer. This year I was depressed throughout the summer. I began thinking about suicide about a month ago. I am afraid to ask my mother for help because she makes fun of her immediate relatives who have the same problems. Though she has told me that my dad was suicidal at my age. I've told her that I was depressed before, but I'm afraid to tell her about the suicidal thoughts, or to ask her for money for an appointment and medication. I'm hoping that letting this out to strangers will help me to get up the nerve to talk to my mom. How have other people been able to bring up this subject to their family/friends?