I made a thread a couple weeks ago about how my girlfriend of 3.5 years brain just exploded and killed our relationship.... A little back story to this is during our relationship she would occasionally have doubts about us being meant for each other and I would talk to her about it and she would calm down and just put these feelings aside and things went back to normal without really changing anything in the relationship. Throughout the whole time she talked about marriage, having kids with me, our futures together, always said she loved me more than i loved her, and I was convinced she was the one for me At the beginning of December she must of had a nuke of feelings in her head and told me we needed a break, shortly after we met up for lunch and she told me that i'll find better and kinda hinted that we were over, during that weekend i really realized how much I took her for granted and was being really selfish in the relationship and I conveyed all of this to her on the phone, I kind of begged for a second chance, and said we should have no contact till next year and we will start over. She tentatively agreed and said if she got those feelings again then it definitely wasn't meant to be, and quickly hedged her bet saying that we must remain friends if it didn't work out. During the month apart I really realized a HUGE amount of stuff i wasn't doing to maintain the relationship and actually felt fucking great about myself and how when we start over it's going to be amazing. Then I noticed she deletes all my pics from her myspace account and I start killing myself over it, but I get over it and don't see it as much I call her January 1st and acted enthusiastic on the phone, telling her i would like to take her out to dinner tomorrow night and what time I should pick her up, she then says "why don't we meet somewhere, I'm not ready for that yet", which was huge blow to me. She then says, "I don't want to disappoint you, we agreed if i got those feelings again", yet another bad sign. Yet for some reason I remained optimistic. We meet were we first met for our first date and drive together to another town about 45 min away to go eat somewhere and the vibe of everything was completely off. To make a long story short on the way home she tells that she didn't think she was 'truly' in love with me. And every time she got those feelings she just pushed them aside and always thought it would get better. She claims her problem is that whenever a guy likes her and they mesh together a little she always thought it was meant to be, she did the same thing to me as she did to her ex-boyfriend. She just has no idea what she wanted, but now claims that she DOES now know, and its to find true love with someone without having those feelings haunt her... I'm just completely fucking blown away at how she could lead me on for 3.5 years? She thought at times she was in love with me but the feelings always came back to haunt her. The scary thing is I know exactly what I was doing wrong now and I won't have that second chance to actually see if it WAS in fact the problems I think, It's going to take a while to get over her.