I think I have a problem with this. When I am sober, the world seems very cold and scary. I am afraid to approach women, give a speech, or speak my mind in general. When I drink though, I do become carefree and more ambitious, but I also feel like when I sober up I will be the same way. Then in the morning I sober up, and I'm back to my old silent self. When I'm sober, I try to be as nice as I can without revealing too much about myself. But it just seems to me that I am only happy when I am drunk, like I am now. I wish I could be as carefree sober as I am when I'm drunk. What the hell is wrong with me? I post here all the time, so if anyone is familiar with me, they will tell you that I have many problems. It has come to the point where I wish I had slight brain damage. Just enough so I can still make it in the world, but also enought so I'm carefree. Is this possible, haha?