i hate my life so much. i hate my job. i have no hope for the future so i dont have any ambition. Theres a girl i like alot but i cant do anything about it(not cause i'm a wuss its just not possible) i am shy around anyone but especially women. I go to school for 3 hours aday so meeting women is hard because its in the ghetto. i have some friends but i dont like hanging out in groups. This is my last year of school and i'm trying to go to college but i think i'll fail cause i'm not that book smart. i'm kind of looking at college as a way to quit my job. i mean i think its good and all to go to college but i hate school. i really don't know what to do. its upseting me that theres no woman in my life and this school thing. i see people at my pizza job and i think i'm going to end up like them. 50 years old and making minimum wage. my problem is i think to much. i have adhd and some other mental problems. i've been so depressed that i'm thinking of checking myself into a mental hospital. i'm not confident and i dislike myself. i dislike my looks, personality, and brain. i've been depressed and complusive all my life but now its worse then ever. i dont know what to do. i dont want to live anymore i have no direction in life.