Did you ever experience the middle child syndrome? The feelings of being left out or not belonging to the family? The feeling that your the least popular person in the entire family and no one outside your family remembers that you exist? I have always felt like this and have never had a drive to do anything. I do just enough to get by and sometimes even less than that. I am a social disaster and don't have many friends. Both of my brothers have tons of friends and are a lot more popular than I am and always have been. My parents both tell me that I'm smart and capable. This may be true to a certain extent, but what good are smarts if you can't apply yourself worth a shit?