Sometimes i feel like i want to end my life. I dont have a legitimate reason to do in most people's eyes though. I just realized at some point that life is so manufactured and fake. After doing certain drugs and learning certain things in psych i realized that being happy or excited is nothing more than certain chemicals in your bran firing at the right moment... For some reason, this realization kind of killed life for me. Couple that with my lack of religious faith, and having to deal with an elderly father since the day i was born, I have had this impending feeling of death since day one it seems... So anyhow, all this led to me questioning suicide. Not because i want to escape from any problems or b/c some is beating me or anything like that, but just because in the grand scheme of things, this all seems pretty pointless. just some thoughts. thanks.