Today I was playing cards (no money involved) with two of my oldest friends and when I lost a hand it felt like it took all of my willpower not to turn and punch the guy next to me right in the face. Pretty much any time I lose at anything I get this urge, like I just want to kill the person, no matter who they are. In sports, if I am defending someone and they get by me, I often foul them immediately, try to trip them, pull on a shirt, whatever. Except ultimate frisbee that's just a . I haven't always been this way, I guess saying "pretty much any time" is inaccurate, it comes and goes, but t happens really often. I do remember when I was in 6th grade, we were playing capture the flag in gym, and my team lost, and some of the other kids were celebrating their win and I just snapped and ran over and tackled one of them and started hitting him.