Well, I posted a while back about not really being able to "feel" emotions. It was like I couldn't really connect with the world for some reason. Well, I've done some research and it seems I might be suffering from episodes of depersonalization. I just recently got out of my longest one yet which lasted a little over 3 weeks. I usually seem to experience it for about one to two weeks and it seems to pop up randomly, but mostly when I just start thinking about my life and where it's going and end up getting into a massive mindfuck. This is the Wiki definition: Depersonalization (or depersonalisation) is an 'alteration' in the perception or experience of the self so that one feels 'detached' from, and as if one is an 'outside' observer of, one's mental processes or body. A feeling of watching oneself act, while having no control over a situation. A lot of people describe it as feeling like you're in a "mental fog" and reality isn't fully registering with you. My own personal experiences are a bit different. It seems like there's some sort of wall or filter around the "inner" part of my brain/mind. This inner part is what registers everything that I take in from the outside world, particulary emotions. However this wall/filter strips my entire experience of reality of emotion and feeling and just seems to give me the basic info. My memory capacty drops fairly significantly. I usually have a VERY vivid imagination, but it's almost non existant during my depersonalization episodes. EDIT: I also feel a very constant and dull headache feeling like my brain is under a lot of pressure. One of the worst things is that the people around you have NO clue that anything is wrong. You still act normally, like your body has been so conditioned that it still knows how you should react? Like if someone tells a joke, you still laugh, but you don't really experience the "funny" emotion. Unfortunately, there isn't much research into this "disorder" yet. The causes appear to be some sort of abuse (emotional, physical, mental, etc.) or linked to drug use. I never have and never will use drugs, so that's it to me, and I haven't ever been abused physically or any of the other ways (unless I somehow did it to myself if that's possible? I could see that being a possibility with how fucked up my thinking was in the past and I still tend to get myself into mindfucks occasionally when I think about certain things). There don't seem to really be any treatments that effectively work. The only thing I've found that helps me get out of it is comedy, GOOD comedy. It seems like if I watch something with some good comedy in it, eventually I start to "snap out" of the episode and slowly start to feel emotions again. It feels so relieving when I do this, but I still hate the emotionless zombie I become during my episodes. So, anyone ever suffer from this or heard about it before? Have any advice on trying to "contain" and prevent episodes from reaccuring? There are a few depersonalization support forums out there that have helped me a bit, but it usually just ends up being a lot of people suffering from it complaining about it all the time and not really figuring out how to get through it.