I haven't really been feeling any emotions lately. I can smile when talking to someone, but it doesn't reflect how I feel on the inside. Life feels pretty bland. I'm just waking up and doing what I need to do to get through the day. I don't have much of a social life outside of school. My weekends pretty much consist of hanging out with my ex-boyfriend or sitting around at home finding something to pass the time with. I will tell someone that I'm interested in hanging out with them over the weekend, but when the weekend actually comes, I ignore them or make up excuses for not being able to go out. I don't understand this part of myself. I don't know if it's that I'm really picky about who I hang out with, or if I just don't feel comfortable going out with other people. I'm not depressed or upset about anything. I just haven't felt true excitement or happiness in quite some time.