I can't shake it. Approval addiction. Out in public, it plauges my body. I try to write down and tell myself that I don't need their approval, I don't need women's approval, I can go on without it, but im lying to myself. I can't help but feel low when I go to the arcade to play Street Fighter and I see people with friends talking to eachother while im there standing around like a loser. Or how a beautiful girl is in my presence, and she show's no sings of interest in me. Knowing that it will be impossible for us to get together, it instantly brings a surge to my mood immediately when I see a cute face. Is this low self esteem? Or juts approval addiction? Or maybe it's because I can't concentrate worth a damn? I don't know if it's from the cymbalta/wellbutrin combo that I've been on, but all my life, I can't concentrate worth shit. Every acknowledge to me brings a "huh?" to my voice, only knowing what they said if I waited 1/2 a second later. Reading takes 3 times longer than usual while comprehending very little of it, and lots of other things. It isn't severe, but I defenantly believe I have a form of it. My confidence level in general is low and I need a bit of direction on how to fix things. Especially about the ADD.