I wasn't really working my program to the best of my ability nearly the entire quarter, and before that some (last 2-4 months at least). I thought I was, I didn't really think much about it, I kept going to the 2 meetings a week I had commitments at, slowly trudged along with my steps, called my sponsor occasionally or saw him at a meeting, and prayed maybe every once and a while at best. I justified my low meeting attendance by the fact that I needed to study. The fact was I was studying even less than I had been before because I felt like crap most of the time. I began to isolate, vegetate on the television (movies, basketball, Seinfeld, that's 70's show, you name it), play basketball (it's an obsession of mine) and eat ice cream. Little did I realize that recovery was slowly slipping away from me, and I was continuing to slide downhill. I began to fear social situations again, and avoid phone calls, and sleep through entire days occasionally. Luckily, I had a couple of commitments at meetings, a personal commitment to this forum, and enough stepwork behind me to stay clean. I had enough recovery in the bank to realize that using would only make my problems worse. Luckily someone said something profound on Sunday night, and I've been to a meeting every night since. Not only do I feel a million times better, it feels like I have more energy and time in the day. Nothing has changed outside of me (I still semi-suck at school, suck with woman, and I'm still semi-broke), but the quality of my life has dramatically improved in just a few days because I decided to work my program again. I'm getting spiritually in shape once again, and it feels good. Just a friendly reminder, if you're feeling numb and kind of ho-hum about life (like I was), try cranking up the speed of your program. Add a few more meetings, pray 5 minutes longer, call your sponsor more often, or work that step you've been meaning to work. You never know what might happen, I sure didn't expect to feel like this. Are you reaping the benefits of working a solid program?