I have realized that i have an addiction recently that's been ruining my life for 2 years... I've started binge-eating on the first year of university when i started smoking a lot of weed.And the residence food being so readily available, and the stress of being in a very tough program, i started binging... I left high school at a muscular build (185 at 6'), ery social, popular and good with the chicks and since then put on about 60 pounds... basically i'm fat and i hate seeing old high school friends.. and their look of suprise in their eye... I binge almost every evening, i barely eat during the time during my times of binging... When i get off from work/school, all i can think of is eating.. and not just one mcdonald's meal or one burrito, but 2-3 portions during one evening until my stomach hurt. It's very sad, i thought putting my weed in control would help but it didn't but i want to quit the food and the weed, but i binge without the weed as well. I go through cycles, i diet vigorously for 2-3 weeks (low-carb diets usuallly) lose alot of weight, and feel great... become social and outgoing again, get my old funny/cocky personality back a bit.. and sometimes even get a phone number or two because of the confidence i feel, but these phone numbers don't go anywhere because by the time i need to call them for a date, i'm back at binging and avoiding society... This is so depressing, i feel like i can either diet (following it very closely) or binge... This addiction ruined my academic performance as well, i just spend hours and hours watching tv shows and binging... I just put on a tv show and eat every night... It's so depressing.. i think being a bit depressed (being new at a university and away from home) brought on the binge eating at first, but now binge eating carries my depression...it's the cause of all my shortcomings... i'm not morbidly obese but i feel like it, i'm so self-consious, it makes me not wanna do anything... Anyways that's was me venting, and this is the part i ask for help... I came to understand this isn't just eating too much, it's the same cycle of being addicted.. I noticed that i literally relapse on my addiction.. So i want some help, and i don't mean going on diet websites and getting a list of which foods to eat... I think this is somehow genetic too, because i'm pretty sure two of my sisters are going through the same thing... One worse than the other... She's very depressed and doesn't go out.. She grew up very skinny and hot and popular in high school and so.. And what triggered her addiction was moving to Canada... Anyways ask away all questions and any advice or thought is appreciated.. Also i know how people think "how can someone be addicted to food, just put the goddam donut down" but believe me it's not like that, i think it's the same as addiction to drugs... You know it's ruining your life but you can't stop it.. Cliffs: started binge eating in university now depressed and anti-social (along with other things ) because of it looking for help.