K, first, before: and After: So I've always been bigger than other girls (and I still pretty much am at 185 lbs/size 14) but I'm smaller than I used to be (230 lbs). Problem is, I still feel HUGE. Whale-esque. I joke about it, and I know I say too many things in the self-deprecating humor department, but I can't help it. I don't think I can ever feel pretty or anything. I know it's stupid and there's likely a thousand threads that are just like this but hey, y'know, whatev. I'm on Effexor xr to stave off depression. I feel like a failure because I've never had a boyfriend and I'm 22. I've had plenty of sex, but I just figured out that guys were simply using me and I felt like crap after that too. My best friend broke up with her bf and nigh instantaneously she finds another man. Me, I can't even find one. What the hell. I know full well that people are going to say things "well be confident!" but that's bullshit. I'm going to be true to myself, which is far from confident. Besides all this body image shenaniganry I'm pretty awesome. I'm just going to post this and see what everyone has to say. You're also welcome to boost my ego.