3 years ago I failed college because I couldn't handle the pressure of doing projects and making deadlines. It didn't help that I was pretty much alone that time and didn't have anybody to help me. Now, I'm in a new school doing surprisingly well... however, when I started doing my thesis everything just started going down the drain. I worked my ass off on one term just to have my paper rejected the next term. They gave me a chance to do it again, but this time I just didn't have the motivation anymore to start over. It's two weeks before the deadline and I still haven't done anything for my paper. I keep procrastinating, thinking that I really will fail again like I did in my old school. I don't sleep well. I sleep every 5-6am and wake up at noon feeling like shit. I feel irritated and hopeless all the time. I started eating more than usual and have now gained more weight (which is just great considering I am already obese). I even started cutting again; it was something which I did after I failed and got kicked out for the first time. Maybe I just can't handle situations like this. Yeah, um thanks for reading (if you did). I just wanted to vent. I'm not really expecting any reply. It's 7am here, I haven't slept and I just can't call and talk to anybody.