I'm not seeing my gf right now but I still want to, and she's really depressed and still wants to be with me. Here is a timeline of what's happened between us, it's long but not hard to read... skim if you like: Summer 2002: She is 13, I'm 15 (year and a half difference... one grade difference).... we meet online... chat and just talk and stuff and we get e-crushes on each other. We talk on the phone a few times... never see each other... basically chat every day or a few times a week, both keep these crushes for almost a year. She lives a few towns away from the city and I never get to meet her because I had no way to get there. Summer 2003: I meet a girl who I like in real life... I tell my e-gf that I can't be with her.... then I end up getting with the RL girl, we have sex and do regular 16 year old stuff... I tell the old e-gf about the sex and stuff, it breaks her heart and all, but I don't realize this because I'm a stupid asshole 16 year old guy. January 2004: I've been broken up with the RL girl for a while, ask the old gf if she wants to meet up and go on a date in person. After some convincing, she says yes. We meet, she is the greatest person I've ever met. We hit it off and date happily for a year and a half, with no problems or anything. August 2005: a couple weeks after her birthday she breaks up with me... says she doesn't want to be in a relationship. I don't buy it, and am depressed over the whole thing for 5 months. January 2006: I am still sad over the breakup, to the point that I don't really think about anything else. Her friend talks to me, when i tell her how depressed I am, that she found somebody else... all they did was cuddle once I ask ex-gf about it and she denies it. I get back into talking to her and we end up gettin gback together, taking things slowly. By april or so it's back to serious mode but she's so busy with school that we only see each other once every couple weeks on average. September 2006: She starts really getting more into the relationship and we just get happier and happier together, after through much of the summer she was distant and not really into it. I'm actually being my real self around her for once because I'm really just the happiest I've ever been. January 2007: I'm so happy that I have no worries... so what do I do? I start worrying. I begin wondering again why she really broke up with me in 2005. Did she leave me for someone else like her friend said? I tell her I'm too paranoid to be in a relationship, whether or not she broke up with me for anybody else. She begs me to stay, so I stay because I'm weak, and without the evidence I didn't really want to risk losing such a great girl. March 2007: I've been fine until this day (5 days ago from this post), when I get paranoid again... I figure it's time to get some answers.... I reset her email password, originally to get her myspace password and see stuff on there.... I read her myspace messages and find that she's pretty flirtatious with some guys... I can't say I'm not the same way to a lot of girls on myspace and AIM etc... it's just fucking aroudn in teh internets... I'm bothered by it but nothing solid really, until I notice an old email in her inbox... from August 2006 (when we were back together). It's from the guy who was claimed to be with her for a bit when we were broken up. In it he was acting overly friendly and said some faggy shit like "muah"... then I check my gf's drafts, and she has a message saved from the same week or so writing him back, in which she calls HIM her "boyfriend" and acts all happy and flirty and shit. I'm absolutely devastated... I immediately call her up and tell her I'm going to pick her up to talk. She sounds really scared. I pick her up, confront her, she denies it, when I tell her that I saw the emails she says it was for 3 weeks, they only went on a couple dates, and they held hands and that's it. I checked the guys myspace, and he's a fanatic mormon weirdo... I honestly don't believe he would ever do anything with a girl, and I don't think my gf is lying to me (i can tell when she's lying, which is why I was paranoid the whole time... I just needed proof). She says that after talking to him and going on a couple dates, she realized she'd rather be with me.... and after that point that she told him so, is the point where our relationship really kicked into high gear and got a lot more fun and actually like a healthy relationship. Now here's my predicament: I should dump her for cheating out of principle, but since it was almost entirely an internet thing and didn't get serious at all, I don't know that I can. I know that it's wrong to get back with her, but honestly, I needed answers.... I picked her up a couple days after I told her off and we began talking. She was crying the whole time, I cried for a minute too. She sounded very honest telling me that she felt like shit when she did it and that she realized she would rather be with me. She has never been with anybody else as a boyfriend in any way up until that other guy, and she got curious. It's understandable, but still not forgiveable. Despite the fact that I can't forgive her for it, I feel like I can work past it. It may end up coming back to bite me in the ass in the future, but I'm confident she will never do this again, and any time I'm around her I don't want to leave. I've wanted to marry this girl since I was a kid (still am of course.. turning 20 on monday ), and I still do. She isn't perfect in my eyes anymore, but I'm not perfect either. I'm going outo n a few datess in the next couple weeks that I've already arranged... Hope doing this will help me be less confused about what to do.