Ok I'll try and make this as short as possible. I am a freshman in college and I had no experience with anything physical before this lady and had been single for the last four years. It happened kinda randomly and having a very low self image I thought she was way outta my league. Basically it was for the last two months and she treated me kinda like shit really. She was never happy to see me and rarely ever wanted to do anything remotely physical and when it did get physical she was rather unforgiving of my inexperience. She dumped via AIM last Wed. 7 hours after my grandmother's funeral. The real problem now for me is that I get sad as I'm always thinking about it, and even though it is an impossibility I would go back to it without hesitation. I keep thinking about all the mistakes I made that didn't keep her happy (I was whipped bad). She really did drag me along and then, at the worst possible time in the coldest possible way she left me. Why the hell can't I handle this!?