Sorry all, this might be a little long. Background information. Senior year of HS. It is 1 day before prom, and I'm not going because the girl I wanted to go with fell through. I was at a party and my friend gets a call from a girl he knows and that I didn't know at the time asking him if he knew anyone that wasn't going because her(Girl B) date backed out on her at the last second. He says she's hot, so I agree and go. We have a blast and really hit it off. She's really hot etc etc. At the end of the night we part ways(no kiss or anything) and go to 2 different after parties. We start hanging out a lot but I find out she is going to Europe over the summer and Utah for school the next year. This makes me hesitant to make a move and fall for her. Well, her trip keeps getting pushed back in the summer for a month, so we hang out a lot and we kiss once. She comes back for a week, we hang out, snuggle and shit. She leaves for school and we talk on the phone ~1/week. At the end of the summer I start talking to a girl(Girl A) I knew from HS who was in kinda the same group of friends as me at a party. I get her number, the next night we're both drunk, she calls me and I pick her up, bring her to my house where we proceed to make out for about 4 hours. She tries to give me hand but I can't come because it was really the first time I had done anything like that. So I move to school the next day(~25 mins away), but we talk over the phone everyday and we hang out every weekend, hooking up almost everytime but never actually having sex or her reaching climax. She is like 6 months out of a 3 year relationship and is still not completely over him. I also learn she suffers from mild depression but I absolutely LOVE hanging out with her. She was the sweetest girl I've ever met. I was/am absolutely crazy about her. During this time she goes through some harsdhips with her relationships with her family. I put up with a lot of shit and she knows it, but in all honesty I didn't mind it because I loved being there for her and making her happy. So this being my first real intimate relationship, I fucked up a little. I got jealous when she talked about her EXs, which was usually when she just wanted a little emotional support. I also pressure her to just start dating me since she implemented a rule that I could not hook up with other girls and she couldn't hook up with other guys. So everyone that is in my group of friends thinks that I'm just trying to hook up with Girl A, which is not true at all. My best friend of HS/roomate tells his EXgf that he thinks me and Girl A are having sex. This eventually makes it around teh circle of friends and reaches Girl A(The firs time i heard this rumor was from her) who calls me, cussing me out telling me she never wants to see or talk to me ever again. She had mad it clear to me that she did NOT like PDAs or people really knowing details of her relationship which i was fine with. I call her a few times over the next few days and she won't pick up. I tell my roomate he needs to at least tell Girl A the truth even if she doesn't want me back. Well he calls her and she doesn't pick up. She calls later but he was "too high" to talk to her so he just sends her a text and that is that. So Girl B moves back like 2 weeks ago. I decide to pursue but I fear it may be too late. I take her to lunch on New Years, and we end up going to a party on New Years. We kissed like 5 or 6 times, but we were both really drunk. So a few nights ago I took her to dinner and the fair. I brought her back to my place and watched a movie. I tryed to kiss her but she wouldn't let me and tells me she doesn't remember kissing me on NY. That was Friday. She called me 2 or 3 times since then and I haven't picked up. I just plan on giving her the I have enough friends bullshit and see what happens, although I expect nothing. I guess there is no real point to this post besides to get this shit off my chest since i have no one to talk to. I haven't talked to my roomate since we moved out (like the 10th). I am still really pissed at him because he shows no remorse and never tried to fix it. I'm just so pissed that the nicest and sweetest girl I've ever met got fucked over because of lies and rumor passing you know? I've tried calling her the past few days but won't pick up. I def don't plan on sitting around feeling sorry for myself, but I guess i just felt that Girl A was really special. Now taht I know what it takes to make a real relationship work, I have a lot less problems meeting girls. I meet girls a lot, it just seems that none of them really compare to these 2 that i fucked up. I just wish I knew if Girl A has ANY feelings for me(i never made her come, I was a virgin she was not so the fooling around means a lot more to me than her) any more. I guess I just needed to get this shit off my chest since I can't go to my best friends about it. Thanks for reading guys, opinons are appreciated.