So i did the unthinkable...kissed another man while I have a bf. Ive been with him for several years, living together as well... but things are pretty bad. No romance from his side, no kissing, sex, etc...no affection, I never feel wanted by him ever. Ive never had a problem with guys in the past, and meet lots of guys who keep telling me how lucky my bf is to have me. This upsets me bc it makes me feel that there are guys out there who notice me all the time, yet my own bf chooses not to... Anyways, met a guy who lives in the state Im from, I moved to another state for school and bf...of course I was into this guy bc ive been deprived of attention for so long, but also we had an instant connection. Im not one to ever cheat, I am very loyal but it happened ... We kissed ...it was the most uncontrollable thing bc I feel for this guy. Worst part is, I feel no guilt. WHY?!? I am not that girl who cheats and doesn't care! So what does this mean, I am not a heartless b**ch, am I just over it?? Is it bc Its this guy? I dont get it!?