not the academics, i'm a senior, and i'll be graduating with a decent gpa right on time. i cant do the parties much longer. im sick of random chicks and one night stands. its all unfulfilling i've built a reputation for myself that reflects how i used to think. i used to be all about the moment, seeking whatever fun i could find at any given time. now, i have goals for myself, and my day to day lifestyle is making it extremely hard to pursue them. my social life has been such a blur for too long...i dont know what to do besides all the drinking and smoking im used to. i cant deal with girls i really like because im too used to drunk sluts, and the possibilty of getting rejected by someone i actually care about is too scary. i feel like if i leave the friends i have, i wont have anything to do. help me out OT, its too unhealthy to keep this up. i want to start going to the gym, work more, meet decent girls and form meaningful relationships with them, but i feel like its impossible in my situation. this is mostly venting, makes me feel better just to put it out there, but if anyone has anything valuable to say, i'd much appreciate it.