I never knew what competition was. I always lived life the way within my own means, and also to be careful not to get into anybody's way. I always let things happen as they were and never quite took the extra step where it counted toward a goal that is hard to reach. And when I did, I could only do it for a short time. I could never sustain my passion for anything I have this problem of being intimidated. And being slightly lazy at times when I am distracted by OT . But I don't let it get to me, and I find plenty of reasons to do the work that I am doing, because I enjoy it. However there are some things about me that make me raise the red flag about myself: For example, I never play sports, and never pertake in physical activities. I tried hitting the gym but I quickly came up with excuses not to do it (its either school or work). I remember not even playing sports in elementary school, or in high school. Sports were just not in my interests. I think that way of thinking kind of, shaped my life in the future. Also, if I see a girl with a group of guys, or maybe with a guy, I could never approach her, even though I'd be interested in her. It would be the same idea: avoiding competition. But it's just a part of me that I've grown to accept. It doesn't make me jobless sitting at home, or it doesn't make me super antisocial in group situations, or depressed or anything like that. Also, and the reason I made this thread, I talked to a very motivated person today, a very competitive person. A jamaican dude in my program, much poorer than me (he almost dropped out last year since he had no money), and has more responsibilities at home. He used to compete in national competitions since childhood, and now that's the only way he pays his tuition. Alongside schoolwork he competes in architectural competitions (He won a few national and international ones) and works, and also wrote half a book, and says he is going to Paris to participate in a biking marathon in 2 years. I ask him, "how"? And he says, "That's secondary. The important thing It's going to happen". He also said something along the lines of comparing himself to a prince. "A prince is young, so people look up to him. He is not intimidated, and he is full of fresh ideas" . Thats serious Jamaican talk ... But I get his point. And didn't have much to say to him except. I am still looking for my "calling" in my life. I believe I have a good life, I go to a university, pursuing architecture, getting a 3.2 GPA, and have quite good expectations of myself. I do want to be an architect, but after listening to him, I feel that I must improve my mindset. I just fear of being "mediocre".... Living in a house in suburbs, commuting to work, taking a vacation once in a while, being a nobody.. This is not really a rant, just something I need to let out. And I decided to post a poll about it too. Let's hear your stories.