Have any of you ever wanted to contact an ex just to see how they're doing? I have an ex from about 5 years ago that was basically my first true love. I planned on marrying this girl but things just weren't right at the time-- I was doing contract work and didn't have a steady job. Long story short, we were together a year and she started pushing marriage. The pushing kept increasing. I would always assure her that I loved her deeply and wanted to marry her but I just wanted steady employment first. She never believed me and felt I didn't want to marry her. After a while of fighting because she didn't understand, I ended it. Shortly after that my mother died and we saw each other a few times then. She kept in touch with some of my family and I found out she was really heartbroken by me ending it. I heard she didn't date anyone for over a year after. Fast forward a few years later. We share a mutual friend (the one that got us together in the first place) and we went out for her birthday one year. Ended up talking all night and getting together. We talked about getting back together. After a short time, she kept accusing me of not being truthful to her AND would do anything to try to make me jealous in attempt to win me back. It just pushed me away again like she did with pushing marriage and nothing ever came of it. Right now I'm at this weird point in my life where I'm reflecting back at a lot of things in the past-- kind of like the movie High Fidelity, but different. The past few years I've had the strong desire to talk to her. NOT to get back together-- just to see how she's doing and how her life is. About two years ago I spoke to the mutual friend and found out my ex was engaged, so I never went through with contacting her. If she was single, I would have. But now that she's married, I'm not going to go there. It's not right. But I just can't help the desire to chat with her. I was poking around on classmates.com and found her profile. I'm not sure why I just told that whole story. I guess I needed to get it out. And I'm wondering if anyone else has felt this way.