She was my best friend - Amber..and we had known each other since seventh grade. We were great friends up until about eleventh grade - when we started dating...then loved each other - and always talked about getting married; and spending the rest of our lives together; etc, etc. Anyways...we broke up at the end of senior year over some dumb shit - (just wasn't getting along, she wanted to take a trip to florida with a 'guy' friend). So yeah I dumped her..she was crying and wanted to get back together - but I wasn't having it. I definetly secretly missed her for about a couple months or so - but just got through it...and continued on my life. I haven't had sex since then - which was about a year ago - which is not really a problem at all with me; considering I just like to go out and have fun however possible. Anyways...I've noticed myself thinking about her now more than ever, even dreaming about her. It's creepy really. I never thought that I would even think about her - or have feelings about her again - but it seems as if this could all change. I haven't really seen her in over a year either - and we definetly left on bad terms; but there is this little twitch in my brain that keeps telling me - that we still might have something...either now - or sometime down the road; you never know. Anyways...I don't know her e-mail address, phone number, or AIM name - and I have been trying to get ahold of her - but I cannot.. Strangely enough she lives about a block down the road from me - and I pass it every day on my way to work. But she lives with her mother, step-dad, and two siblings...So I totally could not just stop by - Like I would just feel soo goddamn weird stopping back at my ex-best friend/girlfriends house that I haven't been in a year or so - even though I've had alot of great experiences at that house. Her mom adored me too...I don't know - it just feels/sounds crazy I know - but I had to tell someone about this. What would you guys suggest? Do you think I am just imagining all this in my brain..should I really grow two pairs of balls and just stop by down there? Should I get her mothers house number? This is driving me mad I tell you MAD!