Ok guys this should be entertaining to read but it sucks for me so I need your help! here it goes. Two years ago I started a job. Over the first month alone I found myself flirting with my boss. It was very good looking and much my type. He also started flriting with me. We found ourselves staying 2 hrs after closing just to talk. But he wouldnt do anything with me since i was underaged. One night he called me and invited me out for pizza. we went. to make it short at the end he asked for gum and me being a flirt put it on my teeth and asked him to get it. we kissed and it all started there. Heres the bitch! HE'S MARRIED! i didnt mean to fall for him . its almost like i couldnt control myself to flirt with him it just happened. 2 yrs this month we have been romantically in heaven. He has a hard home life. Unloving wife ..one beautiful daughter. job is on the rocks..i no longer work with him.. but anyways..we see eachother 2-3 hrs a day or sometimes spend the day together. we have an amazing sex life. such passion. and we are simply inlove i mean..i cant eat sleep or breath without you kind of thing. But it has been weird. He doesnt want me dating anyone else. He asks where I am what i am doing etc. its like we are dating fully except when he goes home. His wife is phsyco though she checks the call he makes everyday etc so we have to be careful. His home life sucks.. he isnt happy..he has been married for 5 years and the only reason he is staying with her he says is because of there 3 yr old daughter. whats worse is she just got pregnant again so they have another one coming. If thats all not confusing...im 19 and he is 36 so thats a bigg difference. his whole family knows about us..all my friends do and some of my family. I mean its like we are dating. And for a while i thought it was just sex with him but its not..sometimes we just stay talking etc...but he has never once said he is leaving her.. she threatens to leave her but that it. when he told me she said that he said i wouldnt care if she left me you are the only person i care about. i mean we are madly inlove. But lately all we do is fight because we are getting frustrated not being together. He gets mad that I go out and drink etc... which i wouldnt do if i had him!! we get soo frustrated!! and i know i should move on.. im so young and have so much to live for... but he makes me want to be a better person. when im with him im good you know? but when not i go out and get drunk and be stupid. ..and nothing i do seems right iwthout him. but i dont want to try to make him break it off with her because i know his daughter and i love and i know its better for her if they stay together not to mention the one on the way...what do i do. Im seeing other peopl on the side etc that he doesnt know but its not enough they all bore me!..another issue is a trust issue he doesnt trust me or anything i am doing so he keeps asking me questions etc he is always hounding me about everything..i know its cause he loves me but its getting to the pooint where all we do is fight. but i cant bare breaking up with him i just cant. what can i do !! help me please im going crazy!!!i just moved out so no family i have a crappy job.. he is all that i have in my life that is good . the last time we broke up i tried coke..i mean i am nothing without him and i am scared of the person i would be without him. but i dont want to be responsible for breaking his home up you know? his wife is a nice person i guess i know her and she doesnt know about us but she just treats him horribly..we are perfect for eachother!! but we cant keep fighting like this but i cant break up with him!!! i hate love!