I don't really post often, but the people here in the forums are pretty cool people and frankly, I'm feeling like completely shit. A couple of a months back, just before my high school graduation, I fell for this one girl. I guess most of you wouldn't think it meant much, but I ended up caring for her a lot. After I spent the weekend with her, I was the happiest I could ever remember being. I asked her out, and right away, I knew she wasn't interested. But I guess we tested the relationship out and ended up dropping it. Come the next few months, I talked to her a lot (mostly over the phone, since she had moved an hour away during senior year). I was pretty sure I was past the infatuation/crush, and I really did care about her, not something I do easily with anyone. Well, college comes, I keep in contact, but a month later, she goes to college too. It's only been a few days, and she's changed a lot. She sounds happy. I've been trying to accept the fact that I can't have her, and that I should just crush this fucking stupid, silly hope. After all, she's already moved on, and high school friends don't usually care through college. I just cancelled a trip to go see her. I feel so emo.