ToeZ
Go Spurs Go!
Man I have been on OT for years and never wandered into any of the forums cept for of course OT...
I read some of the stories here of suicide over a lost love, I can completely understand that, I have been married for 10 years and am now in the process of getting a divorce, I sat in my living room in my new place for a 3 day weekend, all alone, with a shotgun in my mouth, I wanted to put the trigger and my finger pressed about 1/2 way, no click, no boom, the tears were flowing down my face, I called her and begged, pleaded... nothing, we were going to try to be "friends", and we had sex, and it seemed like everything was going to be cool, then we would fight about something and the cycle began again... where I differ is that I am 37 and I have a 13 year old son that lives with me.
You will go through every emotion imaginable during this, you will try to rationalize, that whatever she did, its ok, you cant get over it... you cant, believe me... its not ok, I stil hurt, i am still sad, and i am still lonely.
Do i miss her? YES, do I want her back? NO... although I hurt, and when she starts fucking someone else I will hurt way more, this is the best thing to happen, the relationship was based on some amazing sex, we had nothing else going for us, we didnt communicate, that is crucial.
She now sits on the computer all day chatting with dudes all over the world... whatever...
My question...
Where the hell do I go to meet someone new? I dont drink and dont want a drunk bish, I make over 100g per year, so I am financially stable, im a nice guy, outgoing... I just dont seem to be where the bitches are. Even though I have a kid, I dont want a 40 year old chick with teenagers, and I also dont want a 20 year old with toddlers, I dont want a chick with kids, I dont want a party girl (whore), I just want to meet someone nice, somewhat attractive, and able to carry on a conversation without having to explain everything to her....
Ideas?
I read some of the stories here of suicide over a lost love, I can completely understand that, I have been married for 10 years and am now in the process of getting a divorce, I sat in my living room in my new place for a 3 day weekend, all alone, with a shotgun in my mouth, I wanted to put the trigger and my finger pressed about 1/2 way, no click, no boom, the tears were flowing down my face, I called her and begged, pleaded... nothing, we were going to try to be "friends", and we had sex, and it seemed like everything was going to be cool, then we would fight about something and the cycle began again... where I differ is that I am 37 and I have a 13 year old son that lives with me.
You will go through every emotion imaginable during this, you will try to rationalize, that whatever she did, its ok, you cant get over it... you cant, believe me... its not ok, I stil hurt, i am still sad, and i am still lonely.
Do i miss her? YES, do I want her back? NO... although I hurt, and when she starts fucking someone else I will hurt way more, this is the best thing to happen, the relationship was based on some amazing sex, we had nothing else going for us, we didnt communicate, that is crucial.
She now sits on the computer all day chatting with dudes all over the world... whatever...
My question...
Where the hell do I go to meet someone new? I dont drink and dont want a drunk bish, I make over 100g per year, so I am financially stable, im a nice guy, outgoing... I just dont seem to be where the bitches are. Even though I have a kid, I dont want a 40 year old chick with teenagers, and I also dont want a 20 year old with toddlers, I dont want a chick with kids, I dont want a party girl (whore), I just want to meet someone nice, somewhat attractive, and able to carry on a conversation without having to explain everything to her....
Ideas?