Or do they need the pain? I find when I am in a shitty situation theres a really quiet voice inside who almost enjoys it. Like I have something legit to complain about now. It feels good to know that my problem is worse than anybody elses around me. Isn't that fucked up? Its like it makes me think I'm a stronger person because I've somehow been through more than everyone else. I know its not true...I know most people have been through 10 fold more than I have. Maybe thats the reason I do it. Because I'm afraid that I'm a weak person because I've never been through anything even comparable to most people. I feel like I'm a lucky piece of shit to be who I am and where I am in this world. Theres so many out there who were never even given a chance. What the fuck can my petty problems really mean when theres people out there who would fucking kill somebody for a meal to feed their family. I'm kind of carrying this off the main point, but anyway.