Alright heres the deal. A couple of months ago me and my friend started talking and this is how the aim convo went: me: im mad bored him: same here me: so when u gonna suck my dick him: its w/e me: you serious him: yeah me: i dont have to do anything back tho rite? him: u gotta do it too me: shit, idk him: come on So we ended up sucking each other off. I didnt like doing it at all. I gagged, almost threw up, but kept on going at it since that wouldnt be fair. This whole process happened for a couple more times, I even stuck it up his ass. I didnt like that at all, felt horribly dirty. There was no pleasure, all the times i barely had a hard on took me around 45 minutes to pop. But sometimes I started looking at gay porn and jerking to that, but when I look at straight porn now I dont get as excited down there. But the whole blow job/butt sex just isnt my thing. I dont think I want to ever do that again with a male, and he keeps on asking me about it. My dick wants to but I dont want to mentally. Ive never done anything with a girl besides kiss. When I look at magazines and stuff, I tend to notice the guys bodies first. I can get hard off of a picture of a guy shirtless but with a girl in a bikini and stuff just dosent do anything to me. I got hard when I was making out with my ex so I figured that girls I have to be physical with in order to get aroused. What do you guys think? Please help.