So this is my thread, my motivation, and daily reminder that I need to quit smoking. I have been smoking daily for almost 2.5 years now(just saying that is hard to believe and really disgusting). I must not have thought it was a problem because during that time my grades have been great and so has life in general. Starting last fall though, I thought I was ready to toke up and then I would toke and be like alright this is cool....but then I would wish I wasnt high. I quit during winter break for a little over a month, and felt great. I was the life of the party, clear minded, more motivated to work out and do productive things than usual. Then a few weeks after school started again, I started tokin again because it had been awhile and it was fun(I got blazed like you would when you hardly smoked). Well that every once in a while turned back into everyday, and that brings me to today. I went home over spring break and accidentally left a small sac in pocket. My mom was helping me do my laundry and found it in the washer. When I saw the way she and my dad acted and how they were not surprised, but more disappointed it hit me. I realized that I was using weed as a crutch for problems in life instead of dealing with them like a normal person. Not to mention the side effects that this usage could have on the great relationship I have with my family. I also realize that being high probably cost me a few relationships with girls that I really would have liked to date. It is going to be a challenge, as nearly everyone I know likes to toke. I am determined though, and it will be up to me and my self determination to stop smoking. I know that it must happen sometime, and that I must grow out of this college phase eventually(I graduate in one year). Right before I started reading other threads on Road to Recovery about weed, I was presented with the opportunity to get high with two different groups of people. I knew that I had to decline and I did, and for the first couple minutes I really wished that I was with them and was getting high. As I began reading these threads and typing this post, it hit me I really do like being sober and clear minded. These next few days will be the real challenge as the only time I smoked before was during the week when I was just hanging out and watching tv with friends. This is day two of me not smoking, and I am determined to make it the second day of the rest of my new life. Sorry for the long post, but it really made me feel a lot better. Thank you all in advance for all of your support.