Well guys, I finally cracked under pressure. For the last 2-3 months since my LTR ended I've been trying to fool myself into thinking everything was alright and I was over it. I really want to be over it! I started seeing someone new almost right after the break up and I thought it would help. It did seem to help actually, I seemed generally pretty happy with him. He's a really nice guy, I'm attracted to him and we have a great time together. Everything was going fine, so I thought. About a week ago we got into a little scuffle/argument and basically we decided to spend a couple days away from each other doing our own thing with our own friends to cool off from it. While I was hanging out with my friends, my ex happened to show up and hang out with us pretty much all day. There was a festival thing on our campus and we all went to it. Afterward we all went back to his house (he has 3 roomies I hang out with that I was friends with before I met him) to play beerpong. During this he got sicker (battling a stomach flu, he wasn't drinking) and he asked me to hang out with him in his room to watch a movie I left a few hours later and the next day the new boyfriend and I hung out and he was basically a jerk (still hadn't gotten over our fight). I was ready to move on from it and just have a good time but he wouldn't let it go so eventually I just left and spent the day alone at home doing my own thing. Monday the new boyfriend had appearently gotten over it and was trying to be overly lovey-dovey. I had a dream that night that he said he wanted to get married (not purposed or anything just kind of said it while we were laying in bed about to go to sleep). When I woke up the next morning I couldn't figure out if it had been a dream or if he'd really said that so I kind of hinted at him and asked if he'd said anything intense the night before, he said he didn't have any clue what I was talking about so I said nevermind. It all kind of freaked me out though and I realized that in just a few short months I had gone 0-60 with this guy in a VERY new situation for me (I've never dated anyone so much older, with a kid, etc.) I talked to him on Tuesday and told him all my anxiety about how fast things had moved and how the situation was freaking me out a little and he took it REALLY personally. He basically took it like I was calling him old and saying I didn't like the fact that he had a daughter and stuff (which is not the case, I was just trying to say it's all new to me and that I thought we should slow down). He got really upset by all this and told me he wanted to "take a break" which I know is pretty much code word for break up. I can't say I'm devistated because I am really confused right now, but I did really like him and it kind of sucks that it all happened so fast. Then on Thursday my ex texted me and asked if I wanted to have lunch. We went out to lunch and talked about everything that had been going on (he asked about the new boyfriend because he found out I was seeing someone, etc). I explained the jist of things and he said he agrees I should probably stop seeing the new guy if I thought it was too soon. We went over to my house after lunch to play video games and he came onto me really strongly, and then we had sex. He left about an hour later and showed up last night at our mutual friends house while I was hanging out there. We didn't really talk about it or anything, just acted normal like nothing had happened. So now of course I feel like I am back on square one and that any/all progress I thought I'd made of getting over my prior relationship are squashed. I leave in 5 weeks for basic training and I wish I could just fastforward and leave right now and not have to deal with any of this stuff anymore... breakups are too hard and I dunno if I'll ever want to get into another relationship if it means going through this shit in the end!