I met my girlfriend a year and a half ago. The first date was amazing and we hit it off right away, however almost immediately on the second date, once the excitement wore off and with better lighting I realized that physically she wasn't really up to my standards. I'm 6'1, I'm into bodybuilding and I am in pretty damn good shape, her? She's pretty heavy, probably close to my weight (210 lbs) and quite a bit shorter, etc. She's not UGLY, and a lot of my friends said she's not bad but she's certainly nothing to brag about. To be honest, I should have stopped it right away at that point. HOWEVER, I had some problems sexually, which I won't go into here, and thought that since she was really into me I could use this opportunity to work through them with her (yes, I know, I'm a selfish dick), which is exactly what I did. However, here I was several months later and I developed a lot of feelings for her, we spent a lot of time together, etc. In fact, it turned into a pretty good relationship but I was always embarrassed to introduce her to friends, family, etc. I also, felt like I couldn't settle down with her cause I would feel like I'm settling big time. She is crazy in love with me though and I know she would do anything for me. I tried dumping her after 6 months for exactly the reason's I described but I took her back after only a few days cause I felt like complete shit when I did it and I guess I couldn't handle being without her. For a few months after that I guess my feelings were magnified from that event cause I actually felt really strongly about her for a while. However, those same feelings of settling and me not being happy came creeping back, and she started to want more commitment at the same time. So here I am now, and a year and a half has passed by since we started dating. I ended up recently going to a club with some buddies and I ended up making out with some random chick. This made me realize that I really don't care about this relationship and it's not fair to her. So I ended it last night, and once again I feel like shit. She talked me into making this a break, even after I told her I made out with some chick. I agreed to meet up with her in two weeks but I don't have any intention of getting back with her. I really care about her and I love being with her BUT I think if I stayed with her I'd always feel like I settled and I'd eventually end up cheating on her down the line, etc. As painful, as this is, I think I just gotta suck it up and get over her, and let her get over me, cause I will NEVER be happy in this relationship. I guess what I'm looking for is some kind of confirmation that I'm thinking straight, and I'm doing the right thing.