ok OT if you read my original thread.. (Link to OG thread http://forums.offtopic.com/showthread.php?t=3748069 ) About my Ex this is what she said today in an email. I don't know how to take it, how to respond, if i should believe a word in it, is it positive, is it a guilt reply, am I retarded for even reading it, should I even respond, should I go see her on sunday like she asked? I'm going out of my effingmind. ( IBwhypostupaprivateemailontheinterweb IBwatifsheisamemberandreadsthis) "I am sorry that it has taken me this long to find time and sit down and respond to you and i hate my self for that. I dont have a computer at home so for now I will just be responding at work.... Thank you for staying positive, If i take my anger out on you I appologize. I love you Ryan(dats me) I am sorry for everything... Where did US go?? thats a really good question I feel like while I was so centered around being there for you and helping you through that I stopped being me and became someone different... and now I have to find the me that I am now and get on track in order to find an US .... we got tossed aside when we where lost we both became focoused on finding our self and not keeping an us. I was not mad I was touched. You are so far from last place with me its not even funny. I know you love me I know you care for me and that you would be with me in a heart beat if I would let you .... I know that..... Baby I do. thankyou for answering when i called and talking to me til i fell back asleep and thank you for being you and being so understanding I am sorry to make things so hard on you.... you know when you first asked me for space i thought oh we will be back together in a month or two and then that turned into 6 months and that was soo devistating and to plan things that never happened was just hard to take and then that 6 months turned into 10 and I sat there going where in the hell did this come from i am sorry about everything. I would love to spend sunday with you this weekend if you want to come up and hang out. I LOVE YOU MY BABY. My dearest Love, xxxxx ""