Even though I'm directing this at the current issue I'm having with my ex who just dumped me the other day I had a queston about emotions. I can be emotional or not depending on my mood and what I do. I cried the other day for some time and did so the other night. Now I can completely avoid doing this and can just keep doing something else, but sometimes I like to make myself cry just to know that I'm alive and what it feels like to cry. Kinda like adds one more step to reality for my mind. What I want to know is that right now I'm taking this breakup very easily. I would consider this not so hard. True we were on a downhill so I knew it was coming, but I only stayed at home for one day and really felt sad. What I wanted to know is if it is bad for me to hold my emotions back? Like I could completely just ignore the fact that I should be in absolute pain, but I'm an optomistic person. I like to look at the joys of life because hell I could die in next five minutes and I dont want to die knowing I'm sad. I want to be greatful for what I was given, the chance of life and the challenges it gives me. Is it bad that I only look at the happy things and I need to let myself break down every now and then? Do I need to cry more? Yes I'm a male and I'm secure with my feminie side.