Little backstory: Me and my ex broke up almost 9 months ago. She broke it off with me basically because I had blown the trust in the relationship and had told many stupid lies (never cheated or anything, but in the end there was no trust). We had lived together for 10 months and dated for almost 2 years. We are both currently 23. This was the typical "one that got away" from me, and not a day goes by in the last 9 months that I dont think about her. Since she dumped me, I tried for almost 6 months to try to get her back, but in the end, she told me she could not trust me.. and that if I wanted her back I would know what to do. What I was doing wasn't working and I decided I had to cut her out and maybe move on with my life. I stopped begging her to take me back, I began to attempt to fix myself and understand what I did wrong to cause issues in the relationship. I never stopped thinking about her, but tried to get the hope out of my head. She lives about 10 minutes from my house right now, but is going to community college. I go to a different college and as of now, its been the once place I know I dont have to worry about seeing her and getting all sad. (I have to drive past her work almost every day to get to the freeway to work, or run errands, and I have seen her around the city countless times, Salt Lake is a small place). Main point is that I am trying to avoid her all together to move on (although 9 months later and I would still take her back in an instant). The other day she texts me out of the blue "Hey, I'm gonna be coming to #my school# and was wondering if you could show me the ropes." My heart sank, my one place of solitude is now fucked, and seeing as how my school consists of around 2000 people and is a tiny campus, I am certain I will be seeing her everywhere. Apparently she got a full ride, so I told her congratulations, but am confused about how the hell to respond here. I didn't say anything back, and just today she sent me a text saying I should brush up on my tour guide skills. She knows I want her back, and I would love to try again, but with her lack of trust in me, I feel like she wouldn't give me another chance. I do feel like I have changed in the last year, but that doesn't really mean much in this situation. How do I react? Do I remain civil? How can I stay civil when everytime I hear about her or see her my heart is crushed, and she acts like nothing ever happened between us and we are best friends? Eh, I suppose its more of a rant, but any opinions would be appreciated. I know for a fact she is not dating anyone either. Cliffs: Ex I was crazy in love (stereotypical "the one") with broke up with me based on trust issues, tried to get her back for months and failed, now coming to my small ass college of < 2000 people.