Sort of long I apologize but very important to me and could really use some help. Cliff notes (get to the point) - * My girlfriend has Bipolar-*, we have been together since end of June. This has literally been the most amazing time in my life, from the second I met her I instantly felt she was the exact girl I have always wanted to meet and could practically marry on the spot. We almost moved in together, are practically the same people etc... honestly i may have a problem I dont know but for the most part I hate most people, I am very picky and her and I share the same feelings. Here is the problem, she stopped taking her medication-* around christmas, I believe it may have been about a week before or so. The whole time I knew her she was on it, always did good aside from getting very tired due to its effects (Zyprexa). I have seen her at times where she missed it for a day or two and she would get irritable right away and seemed angered towards me easily, however she was always aware and let me know why she was that way. As soon as she would take it she was fine. * - Last time we hung out was Dec. 27th, she stayed overnight, i gave her presents to her, happy as could be, sex, etc.... dropped her off at work the next day everything still normal. She had to work extra that week so I didnt get to see her for New Years. Fast forward to next Monday, we had still been talking on the phone daily and nightly like normal however when her days off came she didnt see me, im fine with her seeing her friends but this was the first time it seemed weird. I found out that Friday from her that her current mood was that she felt she hates me but she knows she doesnt actually hate me, just that its her mood that is making her feel that way. I understood, despite how bad it sounded but I feared this would happen being off her meds. My biggest problem was that the phone calls and communication started to die with it, worried me all the time as I knew she was very depressed and Manic. The next week came and at this point she was still not answering her phone when i called, I would eventually get a hold of her after leaving a frantic voicemail and I could tell she was concerned for me as well but it was very hard to call me in her current mood. *-This past week it grew worse, she told me that she is very manic right now and she doesnt know what she wants, to be with me or be alone because her mood is fucking with her so bad she cant tell whats going on. Also when I spoke to her she sounded like she was clinching her teeth, and it was hard for her to get full words out, mostly made noises as replies, it was so scary to hear her like this . She said she hates everyone right now, I give her credit as she stayed on the phone as long as I needed her to so we could talk about what was going on but it was VERY hard for her to do and she grew very angry so I let her go. I know she cares about me and there isnt much she can do til this thing lifts. However it was her choice whether or not to stop the meds. So the way I see it, we were an amazing couple right until she stopped the meds, all her symptoms came back within a week and this is when it all went down hill. Due to this I feel confident we would still be together and fine if she hadnt stopped (am i wrong here?). She could never go a day or night without talking to me, to all the sudden practically overnight not answering when i called. She has been cleaning her house like crazy and the only person she will currently see is her best friend Megan. Will she come back to me? doesn she remember us? will she call me again? I have read TONS about Bipolar and its so scary to see these things actually happening, I was willing to do anything to work with her on it, but without meds it seems hopeless. I have never been this depressed or sad in my life, she is the most amazing person I have ever met. I would give anything in the world just to be with her, material objects mean nothing to me. Thanks for any help, this is tearing me apart. Also if anyone here has bipolar, has been through relationships and anything similar and wouldnt mind talking on aim that would be cool. Let me know.