wat up guys and girls i been getting very lonely lately. I'm not an odd job but inside i get so damn depressed and cannot bear the stupid things i do. I went the entire past school year without asking a girl out. i've had this crush on her all year and didn't say a word. I saw her about an hour ago at some convenience store, she was with friends and we were talking and thinking about going out drinking and shit with friends which i really wanted to do. I can tell she's into me and vice versa. For no apparent reason i was like, "alright i gotta go". then i got in my car and left. chances are that i wont bump into her again like that over summer. what the hell is wrong with me? why did i do this? i don't even know why. this just makes me feel like such shit again and i really can't handle it anymore. i wont' be able to eat or sleep the rest of the night now. more suicidal thoughts come into my mind as each day goes by and i don't know what i'll do if it doesn't stop. can anyone help? i'm really lost, i guess you could say, within myself.