Today I was driving and just started to cry for no reason whatsoever, except of course that I felt like shit. I've been pretty happy for the most part lately but today just brought me down. I started to think about life, and all the things we do, all the stress, all the bullshit, everything, and theres so little fulfillment. You can be a really successful corporate leader, but how many people's lives did you ruin to get there? You can fight for your country, but how many people do you have to kill? I had no motivation to live today. I didn't want to die, I just didn't want to be a part of this fucking shitball planet. I started looking at all these people around me driving their big SUVs with their brand new cellphones and all this material shit that everybody fucking lives for nowadays. You work and work and work and all you ever get is bullshit in return. And its like nobody else gets it either. Its depressing because everyone is so caught up in their own shit and totally oblivious to everything else going on, or just simply dont care.