I am wondering how some of you find a reason to keep going on, because I'm having a hard time finding one. I'm 26 years old, and I still live at home. The reason is my father passed away from a heart attack about a year and half ago, my mom has medical problems and would probably struggle on her own, if she was even able to live alone. I didn't move out earlier because was career was just getting started, I couldn't afford it, and my dad was a major alcoholic that was abusive to my mom. I never felt comfortable leaving her there with that. Aside from that, I have no family to speak of. I'm an only child, my mom hasn't spoken with her family in years because of a family squabble, and I've never been close with my dad's family, even when he was alive. I don't have any friends, most are just casual friends at best. Not married, no girlfriend, no kids. I do have a fulltime job in the finance/accounting field, make ok money, nothing great. I have feelings for a woman I know, but she is in a very long term relationship, and views me as just a friend. It's hard to meet other women, because of my living situation. The last couple months, I just feel like packing it in and eating a bullet. My whole life feels empty, and I have no real reason to keep on going. I can't see a light at the end of the tunnel anymore, and if this is all that is left, then I want out.