I had sex for the first time tonight. I went to a party and this girl was a little drunk but I was fine. She pretty much raped me. I'm just really nervous. I don't want a kid at 17. I used a Trojan condom so hopefully it did it's job. After doing it a part of me liked it and a part of me wished I would've saved it. The big thing I'm worried about is a kid. Fuck I don't want a kid.