Name? Hailey Age? 27 Gender? T-Girl Ethnicity? White/Asian = wasian, nick name given to me about 10 years ago. (sparkl WAZN gurlie) Where raised? Southern California, Orange County Level and place of education? Currently a sophmore in College, attending a CC. I have well over 110 units from my training as a nuclear reactor electrician in the Navy, but none of it, not the nuclear theory, engineering, chemsitry, caluclus, none of it, is transferable... except for 2 PE units. Occupation? Student Hobbies? Photography, Anthropology, Fashion Design, Cosmetology, and lots of kinky fun, Sexual preference? I love women. Measurements? I am 6' 2", 190 lbs. Not my ideal weight but working on it. I went from 6' 145 in the military to what I am now, need to find a satisfying middle. Not fat, but like most girls unhappy with my body. Gotta love my corsets. Nice ass, Breasts should get better with HRT. Good Skin, great hair. I like to take care of my body, drink lots of aloe. I pretty much wear an Express/Urban Outfitters/Banana Republic/Forever 21 style day to day, but I do love playing around gothic and punk. I am cute and sweet, though tall. I make a pretty girl and can't wait to make transition. about 36B breasts, size 9/10 Juniors bottoms, Medium tops, and size 9-10 1/2 shoes. How many/type of toys? Not nearly as many as I did before the divorce started. Currently: Cuffs, Collars, Rope, floggers, vibes, dildos, plugs, clamps... best toy is probably the Steel NJOY plug... so comfortable... can wear it for hours. being metal, its great for temp play... put it in the freezer first, or cool it/heat it up with a heating pad/ice while wearing it. Flogger is pink leather, not heavy, pretty light. Rope I have is Japanese silk rope, though I have taken a recent interest in the bondage tape... that stuff is very nifty. I have regular leather cuffs, fuzzy cuffs, a pet smart dog collar and leash, and I have some beautiful custom leather and lace collars to match my Gothic Lolita and Maid costumes. Vibes are generic purple water proof, 7" and 9". The dildo is about 9" long and 2" inches wide, pink on an inflatible base. clamps are typical alligator teeth clamps. Most of my toys are gone since the wife left. Favorite toys/instruments/equipment for use on self and on partner? Oh boy... um, favorite thing to use on a partner... Male - the Aneros Toy, Female - A Hitachi wand Likes & dislikes on an FS level? Very few dislikes... scat and blood really... oh And I don't like being dominant, I am a subby through and through... Doesn't mean I can't do the other and that I haven't done it... It just makes me feel rediculously uncomfortable, same with playing the male role, makes me sick to my stomach, I don't use that appendage. Best and worst experiences with FS stuff? Best experience... being a performance slut, servicing and being fucked in front of audiences/groups of people, or being required to demonstrate my submission in front of others. It's really humbling, but the psychological and all other rewards are the best. Fantasies? 24/7 TPE, long term puppy and pony play. Dollification/Objectification. I often fantasize about being in a 24/7 slave relationship to a dominant. That release of control would be so incredible and a struggle for me. I've done alot of puppy play, but always for no more than 3 or 4 hours at a time. I'd like to carry that further and experience a longer term session of that, caging, more walks, grooming, etc. Tell us about your childhood. Spent 10 years running and hiding form my father who was trying to kill my mother and I. Have a scar from where he shot me when I was 3. Raised mormon, quit the church at age 12 after a group of the other mormon boy scouts held me down ripped off my clothes and whipped me with fused nylon ropes. Had scars for 4 years. similar abuse happened throughout school. Held down spit on, beat in the locker room. Dragged into bathroom by some of the girls, stripped and shaved. All for being more feminine than not. What do you think contributed to your like/dislike of the FS? Long childhood.... all behind me. My involvement in kink and alt things, my submissiveness was my coping with what happened. Submissives have the real power in scenes, the control is really theres and they can call it when ever need be. So it allowed me to take back what was taken and control and deal with my past. When did you get an attack of the freakiness? If you mean an interest in it... 13 or 14 y/o. If you mean involvement, I was 22. Are your siblings freaky? Not in the slightest, not sure me teenage siblings even know what sex is. How open minded are you? Extremely Have you ever been involved in a 3some? orgy? a gangbang? Been in a few 3somes, Never an orgy, and I have been gangbanged once. I was trying to figure it out and I've only been with 4 women, but because of that gangbang, I can't remember how many guy's I've been with. What do you look for in another partner? Intelligence, Dominance, Sensuality Are you a swinger? My stance on relationships is this. Cheating is inherently dishonest. If you negotiate things then it is not cheating. If we are in a relationship and you want to sleep or play with others, please do, just discuss it with me before hand, or do so within limits we have established. In the end the most important thing is who you go home to. Short answer yes, but it's tough to find partners interested in me as a girl and not my excess appendage. Sometimes people just want the penis, and I don't use mine. Have you ever considered swinging? Yes. Have you ever been to a lifestyle establishment? If so, how was your experience? I have, but it was at the very beginning of my venture into the lifestyle, so I was nervous, our trip was very short, pretty much just browsing the store so to speak. Would love to go back and participate. Another place where single Males are frowned upon, though usually they are as welcoming to TGirls as they are genetic girls Have you ever been to a house party? If so how was the first one ever attended? I have attended a house party. It was wonderful to serve and be used. To please my dominants with my various acts of submission. Sub Space is incredible and I love every second of it, so a whole night submitting to a group... amazing Do you think a persons promiscuity or lack there of has to do with their childhood? Yes and No. People are products of their upbringing, environment, and peers, but it is rhetorical none sense to say this is always true. One of the great human abilities is to adapt and the will change. For many this is truth, for some it is not. Have you used online sites for the sole reason of getting sex? Paid sites? Dating sites? It's not about sex for me, I get more out of the scenes and acts of submission then a few minutes of sex. I am a girl and playing the boy role as a boy is repulsive to me. I will not use me penis, I will use a strap on to please a lover, if that kind of thing is required. I use ALT.COM to find other dominants and friends. But not for just sex no. What's your fav. body part of the opposite sex? same sex? My favorite male body part... is a toss up, cuddling against a nice firm, not so hairy, chest is amazing, but I do like pleasing and being used by a nice hard cock. My Favorite female body part in the context I believe this is asking... neck and shoulders... Any fetishes? Soooooo many... 24/7 (Total Power Exchange) Anal Sex Asphyxiaphilia (Breath Play) Ass Play Biting Blindfolds Blood Bondage Branding Breast/Nipple Torture, Clamps, etc. Bukkake Candle Wax Chains Chastity Devices Chinese Balls/Ben Wa Balls/Anal Beads Cling Film Cock and Ball Torture, Clamps, etc. Collar and Lead/Leash Confinement/Caging Cross Dressing Cuckold Cupping (Suction of the Skin) Dacryphilia (Arousal from Tears) - In the context of the scene only Defilement, seeing a partner dirty or wet Depilation/Shaving Dildos (Handheld & Strap-ons) Discipline Domination Electrotorture (EMS TENS units) Exhibitionism/Sex In Public Fire Play Fisting Food Play Gangbangs Hair Pulling (OMG isn't this a requirement during sex/scene) Handcuffs/Shackles High Heels Humiliation Klismaphilia (Douching/Enema) Knife/Needle Play Lace/Lingerie Lactation Latex Leather Making Home "Movies" Masks Masochism Massage Master/Slave Masturbation/Mutual Masturbation Nipples Oral Fixation Oral Sex Pain Pantyhose/Stockings Participating in Erotic Photography Piercings Pinching Play Piercing (temporary, shallow skin piercings) Podophilia (Foot Fetish) Pony Play (IMHO the best of the pet play, but sooooooo expensive) Power Exchange Puppy Play The Rack/Medieval Devices Retifism (Shoes or Boots) Rimming Role Playing Rubber Sadism Scent (the way cetain lovers smell... mmmmm) Sensory Deprivation Sex During Menstruation Spanking/Paddling Talking Dirty Tickling Toys Transvestism Urolagnia (Water Sports/Urine) Vibrators Voyeurism Whips Favorite outfit for a partner? Im a sucker for everything, pvc latex, leather, satin, silk, and lace, But a hot pair of heels or boots are probably my big soft spot. A favorite submissive act of mine is to worship my Dominant by their feet, cleaning the footwear, lacing up those long thigh or knee high boots... mmmmmm so nice. The term BDSM covers a lot of ground. What's your scene? B&D - Bondage and Discipline, D&S - Domination and submission, S&M - Sadism and masochism, All of it and more! How do you identify? I'm a submissive/sub If asked, how would you explain your role (Master/slave, etc.) to a novice? If you're a novice, tell us what you know or have learned so far. The freedom allowed by submission to another, brings me some of the most peaceful moments of my life. In those moments, its not about money, bills, etc., but a focus on pleasing my Dominant/Top. Though some of the items are technically physical, I think in the submissive context they are more psychological, tests of my submission. How far am I able to go to serve another? The rewards come not only physically, but again psychologically when you know you didn't break, you know you've pleased the Dominant. It may be as simple as "Good Girl" but sometimes thats enough to reduce you to a quivering orgasmic puddle (hope you had permission...) How big of a role does BDSM play in your life? It's my life but not my job. How many years of experience do you have? 4 How "out" are you about your BDSM lifestyle? I am not "in the closet" about my alternative activities, but I don't rub it in anyones face. I am greatly angered when someone does that to me with their religion or politics or anything. Happy to have a discussion if you're open to the fact your beliefs and ideas may be wrong, misguided, or just plain ignorant. Tell us about your participation in the "cyber" scene versus the non-virtual ("RL") scene? I've participated actively in cyber activities for alot longer than I've had any formal RL BDSM activities outside of the amatuer practice my wife and I had in our bedroom. Had lots of cyber time, now I am trying to increase my RL experience. Wife is gone now, so things will be different, just have to see how. How did you learn about the BDSM scene and how have you learned and developed your skills? I can't really remember how I learned about the BDSM scene, other than enjoying being a tied up damsel in distress more than the other kids seemed to. I think as access to fetish and BDSM material has increasingly eased over the 15 years I've been online, I have become more and more enthralled and my fetish list has expanded incredibly. Most of what I know I get from discussion with other lifestyle members, online periodicals, and books. How many years of experience would you like your partner to have? It does not matter to me. What are your thoughts and experiences with introducing people to the BDSM lifestyle who do not have any experience with or in it? Be gentle, Don't rush them or push them to hard. It can be overwhelming. I do believe you cannot just tell someone what their fetish is, that they must discover, through time, research, and experience what they like. As a general rule, I subscribe to the you cant say you dont like it if you dont try it, though I do have hardlines of my own... SCAT, Children, and a couple others. Basically, be a guide, not a conveyor belt. Let them feel welcome and safe, not out of control. What factors are most important to you when looking for a partner? Ability to be discreet, Creativity/Kinkiness level, Experience in a certain role (Top/bottom; Master/slave), Honesty and trustworthiness, Intelligence, Personality and how we get along outside of play, Physical attraction, Sexual appetite, Sexual experience, Similar fetishes, Willingness to freely discuss and try anything What types of toys are excluded from your scenes? Firearms. What type of scene activities are you active in or would you be interested in exploring? Asphyxiaphilia (Breath Play), Biting, Body worship, Bondage, Branding, Breast/Nipple Torture, Chastity Devices, Collar & Lead/Leash, Confinement/Caging, Cross dressing, Dacryphilia, Defilement, Depilation/Shaving, Electrotorture, Enemas, Fisting, Food Play, Foot/shoe worship, Genital torture, Hair pulling, Hot wax, Kidnapping, Knife play, Mummification, Needle play, Physical humiliation, Piercing, Power Exchange, Role Play, Sensory deprivation, Slapping the face, Spanking, Suspension, Tickling games, Urolagnia, Verbal humiliation, Voyeurism, Whipping, Puppy/Pony, Maid Play What types of scene activities are OFF LIMITS to you? Adult baby, Coprophilia What type of roles have you played or would you be interested in exploring? Boss/Secretary, Cop/Prisoner, Doctor/Patient, Hooker/John, Married Spouse/maid, houseboy, Master/slave, Nurse/patient, Owner/pet, Priest, Priestess/worshipper, Rapist/victim, Teacher/student, Vampire/victim What roles are OFF LIMITS to you? Brother/Sister (or vice versa), Father, Mother/Nanny, Parent/Child Have you ever videotaped or taken pictures during a sexual encounter or scene? I've taken and been in a few naughty photos. Describe what you experience physically, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually while participating in a BDSM scene. The freedom of submitting completely to another, is almost meditative if its quality for me. The physical sensations are incredible. But the psychological experiences... are hard for me to describe. What location(s) do you fantasize about for a scene? An airplane, Bar/nightclub, The beach, A bed, A castle, A church, A cinema, A dark back alley, My desk at work, Different time period (past or present), A dungeon, Lift/elevator, A medieval torture chamber, The middle of a park, Ruins, A shop dressing room, A swimming pool or hot tub, Under a waterfall, A vehicle (i.e. car) Using one of the location(s) you chose as a fantasy setting for a scene, tell us (in detail) about an encounter there. Fact or fantasy? Being put in a situation where demonstration of my submission is required, in a public place, such as an airplane, store, etc. The humiliation would be devastating and incredibly intense. To have my limits tested in front of others. I know this isn't really consentual on the part of the observers, but it is a fantasy. Would you be interested in scenes/play with multiple partners? The more the merrier! How do you prepare your home/physical self for a scene? I'm always "on." I was in a nearly 24/7 femdom lifestyle., I use a variety of costumes and accessories., I will redecorate whatever room I'm using., I have an excellent imagination., Prep? Tie me up, spank me and fuck me. That's all I want., I'm learning my play skills. I'll work on the aesthetics later., Someday, I'll have the budget for the preparations I have in mind., To get things started, small talk is a good place to start. What's your comfort level in talking with a partner about play/scenes? I'm somewhat comfortable explaining what I want or don't want to do. Do you believe in using safe words/signals? Yes, they are crucial to BDSM play. How detailed would you like scene negotiations to be? I just want to set boundaries and limits. Things can be negotiated, but many things should be understood before hand. Do you believe in using contracts to have a written agreement (non-legally binding) that states what both partners are committed to doing during play or a scene? Only required in a 24/7 lifestyle, but anyone who wants to, go ahead. Where do you stand on being under the influence of drugs and/or alcohol during play? It's never a good idea. It's just not safe. How far do you push the extremes - how into edge play are you? With the right partner, I would be willing to try almost anything. Have you ever had cybersex? I've done it so many times that I've forgotten how to type with two hands. What toys do you enjoy using for insertion/penetration? Anal/Climax beads, Ben Wa balls, Butt plugs/probes, Clit stimulators, Cock ring, Dildos/Vibrators, Fruits/veggies, Office supplies, Strap-ons, Vibrating eggs or bullets, All of the above and more! Strap ons, pretty much any insertable, coupled with restraints.... amazing What food items have you used in play? Breath mints, Carrots, Cucumbers, Good 'ol ice, Grapes, Ice cream, Popsicles, Whipped cream What food items are you interested in using for play? Bananas, Breath mints, Carrots, Cherries, Chocolate sauce, Cucumbers, Frosting, Good 'ol ice, Grapes, Ice cream, Jell-O, "Popping" candy, Popsicles, Strawberries, Whipped cream How do you play with food during sex? Usually as insertables. How much enjoyment do you get from receiving oral sex? I much prefer giving oral... ALOT! What are your thoughts on anal play? I always enjoy anal play. What's your take on fisting? On occasion, I think fisting should be introduced into play if the partners are open to it. What factors are most important to you when looking for a sexual partner? Ability to be discreet, Agreeable to a commitment free sexual relationship, Chemistry, Creativity/Kinkiness level, Experience in a certain role (top/bottom; master/slave), Honesty, Intelligence, Open to menage a trois and/or orgies, Personality, Physical attraction, Same/Similar fetishes, Sexual appetite, Sexual experience, Willingness to freely discuss and try anything What other channels have you used to find out more about BDSM? Books, Classes/Lectures, Counseling/Psychiatrist, Friends, The Internet, Magazines, Porn Movies Are you involved with the BDSM Community in your area? On and off Describe any BDSM community events you participate in or have participated in. Munches Tell us what you think about public perceptions of the BDSM scene. I think public perception is skewed. The average exposure to BDSM I think is on TV, in the negative context through shows like Law and Order. When the public sees these shows, the victim's is an unwilling participant in a serial killer or rapists game. They will use words like Bondage, Dominatrix, etc, but not give anything the due respect or explanations they deserve. This serves to reinforce the negative (perverse) conotation BDSM has in our societies. What kind of nightlife do you enjoy? Gatherings in my home with close friends, Going to the movies, Just lounging around the house with family/friends, Raves, Regular Bars Where do you buy your props and toys? Adult bookstore, Craft stores, Online, Pet stores, Specialty Boutique, Everywhere and anywhere What kind of porn movies do you enjoy the most? Amateur, Anal sex, BDSM, Fetish, Gay, Lesbian/Women only, Soft, It depends on my mood. How do you enjoy your porn? Online What is/are your ideal BDSM relationship(s)? Activity pals, Collared, Fuck buddies, Long term, Play partners, Polyamorous, Short term, Long term What would be your dream BDSM lifestyle living arrangements? Femdom relationship with me a collared submissive, maybe even slave. Children makes 24/7 impossible, but I'd still like to be able to engage in the Pony play and Puppy play. I enjoy playing maid and slut. I would love to have a beautiful Gorean style steel ring collar around my neck 24/7 with "braclets" to match. What's your dream job? Photography, and fashion design. If I could make some of my fashion designs and fetish designs and then participate in regular and fetish/erotic photography, I would be so immensely happy with work. What's your dream vacation/getaway? Japan. My favorite place in the world, with Europe a close second. If you could do anything what would it be? A beautiful submissive/slave girl to a wonderful Domme in a polyamourus situation. What's the best advice you've ever been given? Who gave it to you? Why should anyone who reads this take this advice to heart? Don't stress about all the little things in life, or else when something big comes around that really is a crisis, it'll kill you. How do you handle set backs to your dreams? Ooh Ooh I'm getting divorced so I know his one! Re-evaluate. What do you want, what do you need, what do you have. Approach it resonably and logically, make a plan, and go for it. How important is it to share the same dreams as your partners? There needs to be a commonality. You're gonna have problems with your relationship if one of you wants to join the peace corps and head to South America, while one is chasing the corporate ladder. But if your goals are more like, have a house someplace we like... that's quite managable. What actor/actress might play you in the movie of your life? Angelina Jolie... Brad Pitt... Seth MacFarlane? Iono... Where do you see yourself in a few years? Out of Sacto, preferably in the Bay Area or the OC, making over 50K well into my HRT and even maybe finishing SRS. Generally speaking, how daring are you? I'll try anything once. I love the adrenaline rush. What words best describe your personality? Cautious, Curious, Daring, Funny/humorous, Honest, Insatiable, Intelligent, Loyal, Outgoing, Sarcastic, Sensitive, Trustworthy What qualities do you look for in a partner? Curious, Funny/humorous, Honest, Intelligent, Loyal, Outgoing, Realist, Sarcastic, Sensitive, Spontaneous, Trustworthy, Wild 'n Crazy Tell us what things in life are most important to you and why. My son, my friends, having a home and education, not being alone as a TG/TS, a chance to play my submissive role. What is your favorite clothing style(s) during the day? Casual, Classy, Trendy, Urban What is your favorite clothing style(s) during the night? Casual, Classy, Goth, Punk, Trendy, Urban How do you dress up for special occassions? Depends on the occasion. What ever is called for really. Professional situations (court, etc.) I do the suit and tie, haven't done HRT yet so womens business clothes just aren't quite right. For parties and play, well it depends on the party. I would love to play the submissive maid or slut in my ornate dresses with petticoats, but I love latex and lingerie too (who doesn't love a school girl)... whatever the situation calls for. Describe your most attractive feature. What body part do you first notice when you meet a person? Hair What physical feature do you notice when you meet a person? Clothing Style? How much does physical appearance matter to you in a partner? Not as much as personality and openess to my being Transgendered. If someone is hot but a bigot what does the hotness matter. How important is physical attraction to you in selecting a partner? It's a factor thats all. Not the most important, not the least. Just a check box. What do you wear for underwear? Low rise... Thongs first, Bikinis second, and occasionally Boy Shorts What do you think about tattoos? Body art is beautiful What do you think about piercings? I have one or two piercings How is your body decorated? I have several tattoos., Both ears are pierced once., My tongue is pierced,. Both nipples have been pierced three times so far. If you have tattoos and/or piercings, tell us about them. Where and what are they? What do they mean? If you don't have any, why not? My favorite tattoo so far is a tramp stamp on my lower back, in beautiful arabic script, and it means "submissive whore". I want to get Dorei and Chattel, each on one of my ankles, both mean slave, the first is Japanese, the second is French. Do you exercise? How? I run. I am afraid to do muscle building before starting HRT and discussing it with my therapist. I do not want to build up, just slim down more. What is your sexual health status? STD free (tested regularly) What type of television shows do you enjoy watching? Arts & Entertainment (A&E, Food Network, Home Improvement, etc.), Cartoons/Anime, Documentary/Learning/History, Dramas, Movie Channels, Sit-coms, Soft Porn, Variety/Stand-up/Comedy What are your favorite television shows? Burn Notice, Psych, Monk, Heroes, Sarah Connor Chronicles, Chuck, Life, Penn and Teller's Bullshit, Fringe, Swingtown, Bones, Taboo, NCIS, Smallville, Dexter, So You Think You Can Dance, Who Wants To Be A Superhero, that's all I got right now... What kind of movies do you enjoy the most? Action, Anime, Comedy, Cult Classics, Documentary, Independent, Romance/Love Stories What are your favorite movies? Princess Bride, Mannequin, Zoolander, Accepted, Secret of my Success, Ferris Bueller's Day Off, Dirty Dancing, Leon (The Professional), Bourne Identity, Die Hard, Fifth Element, Men in Black, Wild Wild West, Independance Day, Casablanca, North by Northwest, Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade, Breakfast at Tiffany's, Sabrina, The Rock, Face/Off, Broken Arrow, A Goofy Movie, Aladdin, Finding Nemo, Army of Darkness, Dogma, Gross Pointe Blank, Hi Fidelity, Say Anything, Shallow Hal.... on and on What kind of music do you enjoy listening to? Alternative/Indie, Classic Rock, Classical, Electronica/House, Folk Music, Jazz/Blues, New Age, Oldies, Opera, Pop/Top 40, Punk, R&B/Soul, Rock 'n Roll, Show Tunes, Women Who Rock What does listening to music do for you? It's relaxing, It's inspiring, It helps me get my anger out, It's great for dancing, It's good background noise, It gives me time to sing, It's how I express myself What are your favorite musicians or bands? I can't even begin.... What are 5 albums you can't live without? ooooohhhh I have to think about this. Tell us what you're reading now. My Husband Betty What do you like to do in your free time? Spend time with my son and friends. Photography. Dreaming. What are your favorite sports/teams? I don't like professional sports. I hate watching it on TV, though I will go to see a game on special occasion. I think it's pathetic these assholes whine about ONLY getting 10 million a year while kids have to pay 200, 300 and even 400 dollars to "enjoy" the same sports in an organized setting. Why the fuck should they get paid so much for their talents while an artist may struggle to sell a painting or photo for 50 dollars for rent. Idiocy What best describes the pace of your life? Go with the flow How much time does your job take up in your life? I'm a student Describe what you do for a living. I am a student and Navy veteran. How often are you online? I'm on several hours a day. What kind of place do you live in? Apartment What do you like about where you live? My son is here and I have 2 great friends here. Thats it, I hate the rest. What is your current dating situation? I'm in the middle of a divorce. What types of relationships have you had in the past? Share your story with us! Been engaged twice, married once, now I'm getting divorced.