I stopped smoking last Tuesday. I had to fight it a bit, but all in all it took a LOT less willpower than the first time around. No surliness, no chest pain, none of that. But tonight I toss back a few shots of vodka, and now I'm desperate to have a cigarette. I really wish I could get de-addicted, so I could just have one from time to time, like I used to when I first started smoking. I went probably five years having one a day or less. I didn't really start smoking a lot until my last semester in college, when I lived alone in a small house in NJ. That's when I started hitting the pack hard, and I never really stopped doing it. All I want is a cigarette every now and then, I don't want to be addicted to them. They agree really well with my brain chemistry; I don't understand why it's so much to ask to be able to enjoy it from time to time.