Here is the backstory OT. While deployed to Iraq (still am) a girl I knew when I was going to college and I started talking online. This all started in mid to late march. Towards the end of march I told her how I had feelings for her and if i was home I would like to be dating her. She was hesitant at first because she thought I was just going to use her for sex when I was on my 2 weeks leave. Eventually I convince her that isn't the case. While we were talking about this in late march or april I asked her if there was anyone else in the picture. She said no, hadn't even gotten any for 2-3 months. Now we weren't commited or anything at that time, but she would tell me if someone else comes up. The whole time until late june when i came home for 2 weeks we were just counting down the days and couldn't wait to see eachother. We would talk online for 8 hours at a time almost every night. She keeps reassuring me there is nobody else. Tells me about this guy Billy that had called her a couple times. Tells me they were just friends but she didn't hang out with him anyways because she knows I am super jealous. Finally get home and I had the best 2 weeks of my life with her. We spent every waking moment together. We went on a couple trips and stayed in a resort for a couple nights and a cabin for 1 night. I'd never felt this strongly about a girl before. Halfway through when we are at the resort and had been drinking she mentions something. Tells me that she thinks I am the one for her and wants to spend the rest of her life with me. That she had been talkin to her mom about us trying to find out how you know when you found the one. She said she just knew I was. She went on to say she has never felt anything like this in her life. She was so sure about us staying together forever. I'll admit I had thoughts like she did, but didn't tell her right away. I don't talk about how I feel most of the time. I was falling in love with her. I didn't want to go back and regret not telling her. So one night when we were layin in bed talking about how she wants to marry me someday and all that serious stuff. I told her I had something to say. It took me almost 10 minutes to say it, but i finally told her. First thing she says is "you just gave me butterflys" then tells me that she loves me. Now it took her 3 years to say that to the only other person she had told it to. So it means the world for her to say it. We agree that nothing like marriage would happen until I leave the army (2.5 years). When I left to come back overseas we talked for almost 8 hours online every night. I would stay up all night talking to her. I was never so sure about anything. Well yesturday somehow april and may got brought up. I started asking questions. She admitted to me that during april she slept with 2 guys. One of them Billy, who she claimed was just a friend. She said this was when she wasn't sure about where we were going and thought i was just going to use her. Also assured me that it was only once with him and completly cut off contact with any of them towards the end of april. So she didn't cheat on me because we weren't together, but she lied. Also lied about not getting laid in 2 months. She also lied about not having a past with Billy. She claims she lied because she didnt expect us to get together at the time. Well I went fucking ballistic. Calling her every name under the sun and broke up with her. She begged and pleaded for hours for me to not do it. She kept telling me she can't live witout me. I am the only one for her. She would love me till the day she dies no matter what. I am her soulmate. I showed no mercy and just continued berating her. She threatened to take a bunch of pills to kill herself because there is no point in living without me. I get the police deptartments number off their site and call them and report her address and where she works. Hours later she gets online and tells me she didn't do anything and thought i would know she was kidding about killing herself. Well the cops and paramedics showed up at her work with her crying family and forced her into an ambulance. She is taken to the hospital and they see she is fine. She talks with a psychiatrist and then goes home with her family. They force her to stay in their bedroom for 3 days she can't leave for anything. I am still talking to her as of now. I hate this feeling. I still love her so much. I want to spend my life with her. But I don't know if i can forgive her for that ever completly. I wish I wasn't so upset about her lieing. She is telling me she will do whatever it takes. She says she will never ever be with another boy. Says im the only one for her. Says she will never stop loving me. cliffs: i want to be with her more then anything in the world, but dont know if i can stop being upset with what she did even though i know im insecure, jealous, and probly overreacting What should I do?