More of a vent, was going to just write it all down and throw it away but I can type fast and replies about the situation would be interesting. First of all I was a Christian my entire life, but I left the actual established religion and developed my own theories, I don't believe in their God, but I hold a lot of the same values morally. Story time... Beginning of the summer, everything was going great. We'd go out together every other night, text each day, hug, kiss, makeout etc... No sex though. Two months of that stuff pass..I developed pretty strong feelings for her quickly and I let her know, she said we have a lot to develop but she likes me a lot and wants to work on a relationship. Everything was still going great, we are still going out nearly every night and spending a lot of time together. Two weeks then go by and we become more and more attached, she leaves for a Christian School retreat as a volunteer. The first day she's there she's telling me how she misses me and how uncertain she was about going... day two and three I text her to see if it's gotten better for her and she doesn't respond. So she's ignored me for two days...I call to ask why shes ignoring my texts, no answer, I text and then she says that she needed space and wants to discuss over coffee the next day. The next day she says at coffee that she feels God is calling her to serve and to do other things, and that she doesn't want a relationship with me... Now she's surrounded herself in friends she's met at the retreat, and mutual friends we have, which makes it awkward to even try and talk to them about any of this. What sucks is that I feel like they know more about what happened with her than I do, she just doesn't talk to me about it other than God is calling her elsewhere... I feel like I have no choice but to respect it, but I also feel like it's a huge cop out. I feel like there's no closure since I have no idea what happened between when she stopped texting me till yesterday. I'm not sure what to do now either besides not contact her for awhile, I haven't spoken with her since yesterday at coffee.