i don't know what to do... i've been talking to her all evening, and now she doesn't want to talk to me anymore... apparently, she's been feeling worse and worse (she's not doing well in school, her roommates bother her - she lives with all other males), and she wants to "punish" the one causing all this (herself). she's tried twice... the first time a few weeks ago, she told me she took 8 tylenol and woke up the next morning ("big deal... I guess I didn't really want to do it because there's no way that would have killed me" ... right). then today she told me that last Sunday she took something (wouldn't tell me what) and ended up throwing it up. so she says she isn't serious. I've asked her to get help, and after she told me about the first time, I got her to promise me that if she tried it again, she'd get help. but now she says that she wasn't serious about killing herself (because it didn't work). she refused to talk to me more because she says she is embarrassed. she told me that it's her right to do it, that she's been wanting to for a long time, and that nobody has a right to stop her. so I don't know what to do... I am afraid she's going to do it again, and though I don't think she'll succeed, she's still hurting herself, and she still has the pain in her that is making her want to do this and making her feel like she has no other options. what can I do as a friend? as a boyfriend? I don't know... when she gets like this, she tells me that we should break up, but she's always glad she didn't the other 90% of the time (though she said she still wants to kill herself all the time, more and more, and with increasing drive). sorry for the length... please if you're going to say something like "run away" or call her crazy, save yourself the effort and don't bother posting.