This is a follow up to this thread: http://forums.offtopic.com/showthread.php?t=4256211 . There really isn't much new news but before I thought I would be able to change her mind. She's dead set on moving out in the next week or so. Sucks, just last week I was thinking about marriage (not about proposing, just the idea in general.) I knew deep down inside I wasn't ready and I started questioning why that might be. I looked at my life objectively and figured out that even though I'm a pretty good boyfriend, I'm not as responsible as I should be and I can be selfish. Not so much that I actively put my needs ahead of anyone else's, but I definitely didn't put my SO's needs in front of mine. I started making changes but it was already too late, I found out that she had been planning on breaking up with me for a couple of weeks (she spilled the beans to her girl friends while she was drunk during camping a few weekends ago). Anyway at this point I'm not sure what her intentions are. She says she needs to really find out who she is, and she needs to see me grow on my own and become more responsible. Yesterday we kind of mutually agreed to just split with just one string attached - no dating anyone in our close-knit group of mutual friends (~10 people or so), most of which are her coworkers. It's going to be really hard for me, while i don't like to admit it I'm pretty emotionally dependent on her. And it's just weird since we live together... We're still cuddling, kissing (not making out), saying we love each other, etc. It almost feels like nothing changed and sometimes I fool myself into thinking it never happened but as soon as I realize there's no going back I get the worst pang in my stomach and my heart sinks. She says she's open to date me again in the near future and getting back together, but not for a while. Anyway I'm trying to cope the best i can. I went to the bar with 2 good friends last night (one male and one female) and it felt interesting being single. They both heard through the grapevine what was going to happen, so I just kind of told them it's official now and it never got brought up again. Got pretty wasted and had a good time, danced with some girls, then we went back to my female friend's apartment and played video games for a while before crashing. I ended up sleeping on the same futon as the girl (and my other friend jumped on later) and it was kind of nice waking up cuddling. I have to admit I have some feelings for her and I think she might have some, too although it's hard to well when everyone's plastered. But, she's a good mutual friend so I should probably stay away. Anyway, most of the regular posters in the subforum are pretty like-minded and for the past 3-4 years you guys have been pushing for a break and I think I knew all along you guys were right. I don't feel like I've wasted any time though, and I have no regrets. Just throwing this out there for you guys to see since for some reason a lot of you remember me by name (I usually delete old subforum posts, so it's surprising you guys actually remembered me). Feel free to give me any advice on the situation... The hardest thing to cope with for now is that it kills me to think of her with other guys. We've been exclusive for 5 years and we're both very honest with eachother. She says she's never cheated on me and I beleive her, and I haven't chated either. So the thought of her with another guy just seems so weird, makes me insanely jealous.